You write me
A beautiful lullaby
Soothing to my ears
What a beautiful melody
Exquisite symphony
Drift me away
To a world of fantasy
But deep inside
I'm bleeding badly
By the lyrics of yours
For your words are sharp
And like a blade
Slashing my heart repeatedly
I close my eyes
With tears rolling down
Drifting into a deep sleep
And so I die
Killed by a wordsmith
In his sweetest melancholy

-Jess

I'm trying to escape
For my sight has been *****
Watching the show of life
Proving I'm just another strife
And so I close my eyes
Looking for a paradise
Because deep inside my chaos mind
There's a tranquility I could find

-Jess

Being a sinner and I'm guilty
But should I be condemned for eternity?
Just because I stray too far from reality
It doesn't mean I seek no clarity
I don't want any sympathy
Nor I ask for charity
Just don't judge my sanity
Because within the chaos I still own my tranquility

-Jess

Sitting here and I start to frown
Carrying a thought of dying with a knife
Then I realize I'm one of the clowns
Playing my part in this circus of life

I'm juggling from good to bad
Resembling an angel and demon
There are times to be good and bad
****! It's just hard to get even

Walking along the thread
Trying to find the balance
I wish I fall down and dead
No more quest for my existence

Drowning with lust and sin
Sinking into the darkest pit
Somehow I claim back the light to reign
What for? Just to repeat the cycle of ****?!

-Jess

Waking up
With cloudy sky
Above my head
I look in the mirror
And I hate
The reflection inside
Innocence
Has been torn apart
By my own hand
Purity
Has been stained
With evil touch

Darkness
That's what I see
Numb
It's how I feel
Empty
With no purpose
I dig and dig
Looking for the answer
Questioning
Where's the inner child
Who am I exactly?
But then I realize
I'm just an empty vessel
Wandering around
For my soul
Has been long gone
I'm trapped
In the hourglass
And soon to be dissolved
In the sand of time

-Jess