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Today
silence
a garden
losing ground
cold and deep
my feet in
buried snow
sometimes pale ghosts
of winter whisper
in the footprints
that I follow
long, until the
Spring
 Feb 2014 Jessabellium
brooke
Rimy.
 Feb 2014 Jessabellium
brooke
you know that way that cars are cold
and the bite of 18 degrees gets under your skin
the way your chest dimples in, and the pores
around your ******* forget to breathe, your body
shrinks in the morning breeze

the way the fog turns red above Florence's lights
and the next town over looks like it's on fire, the
mountains hide in a thick of snow and you can
feel their chill in your very bones?

I will always sleep with my windows open, in the
heart of winter and the palms of summer. I like
the way I feel small in the winter, i like the way
I feel small in the winter.
(c) Brooke Otto 2014.
Sometimes, but moreso often then not,
I may lay and gaze listlessly at the river.
I can decide to even ask it a question or two.
It has a metamorphosis into a loving companion,
Which has grown upon and is only within my mind,
But then it whispers back to me, whispering secrets it only knows,
This voice, murmuring it speaks lustfully of its' known truth,
T'is the sound of rain, it humbles the wind, and fire's tongue it stays,
But henceforth from here and out, t'is the bringer of pain.
It bends and contorts, riding the rocks, like painted ponies wild,
Blending colors and creating it binds the flora, in a mindless dance,
It storms over many a lands, not unlike the humans craving advances.

Although I may gaze often, silently and curious into the river,
Fleeting in the wind, holding in the breath, to turn naught a single tide.
Shall I dare take a breath, and let blood always turn through these sunken veins?
Am I absolute, and real? Perhaps I am still within my flesh, perhaps still made of bone?
Or has this body decomposed, turning into water and turning into stone?
But after a time, pondering and searching within these calmly churning waters,
I began once, wondering of who I am, and what I was supposed to be.
But what many may perhaps never ever realised, or even begun to know,
Is that the river has begun, it's own turn with the tables, turning its gaze,
And begins to watch me in return.
Yesterday, I noticed you were fragile
you could barely stand alone
With your chin held high
letting the tears crawl down your face
Leaving trails of slime behind
devouring your face one smile at a time
Leaving them to split your face in two
separating fict. from fact
Until you are turned naturally
turned into the common tragedy

Yesterday, I saw that you were hurt
your delicate bones couldn't hold
Wavering within the wind
as a sad soft smile courses through your veins
Fool, You let hell inside your parted lips
gagging on your tongue as you drown
It has begun to dim the lights
pulling you ever under and making you restless
Until you are pale to your lashes
turned to dust within ashes

Today, now I see that you are gone
your life has come to pass
Only the memories remain
of a life that could not last
You shall soon be replaced
we shan't remember your face
Or the cuts upon your skin
and the blood upon the wall
Only the world stooped to watch
as heaven made its call
Choking back the austere tears
Holding a paled hand
Feeling a fluttering pulse
Auscultating to the drumming beats
As they languidly diminish in strength
   *Swallowing the lumps in a throat

Supporting a medicated head
Watching the thoughts pass through eyes
That have never seen (that never will)
Imagining in black and white
   Covetous to see what they do
Only allowed stagnant black
Yearning to view the vividry of natural
Always wasted on time spent dreaming
Yet still holding on to them
   Reciting every reason through a brain
You cannot chase away the darkness
When it is one's only companion
Harbors the soul in an animated delusion
Driving towards the light in which it cannot see
   Letting the eyes rupture
Longing,bursts within the velvet folds
The sightless have deteriorated
For nothing gives an interest, nor enthusiation
Only to blame death upon the lonely darkness
   Although the life we lived was not scandalous
While it may seem bleak and dismal
We could have made something glamorous
With not an apprehension we could be marvelous
*Why couldn't we have been beautiful?
For someone who has gained my care.
A shadow of doubt has begun to cling to his neck

Seeping poison in, until his existence is the essence of pain

In its ever haunting slumber it still will feed, for he is the snack

Stealing the fruitful juices of life inside, driving him insane


Perhaps, if you feel, you may blame it on the intensity

It has a way of confusing 'abominations' in the most unfortunate times

Shadows will scorn them blind, crawling towards a false ecstasy

Becoming lost in shadowed worlds and words, missing all the signs


Every pain he could never let go of, he held on to from the start

It is a feverish sickness that burns, scorches breathing lungs

The shadows voice inside his head, has begun to boil his heart

Now, forever will leave welts from shadows licking tongue


Ever lost in his spinning minds, contorted of all sense

He's gone missing in the cave of sanity, leaving a used husk of a carcass

Blank eyes stare at the world around, a wound that shall never heal

Forever searching to find a single path of light that will lead him to the surface
Not quite finished, for I'm still wanting to write 'something more'. I feel as if it is not finished.
He's only seen what once had ever happened
but the memories he has decidedly repressed
his eyes have been glued, cemented in with solemness
never again shall they open as they've been sewn shut

The stitches themselves have only ever ached
for the needles were minute and blindingly fast
the holes between each slight and delicate thread
has left aperture trails behind, a kindling to his ****** gloom

Cleaved and lacerated, his lids have splintered
**** filled blood as its only moisturizer
spasmming as it oozes along the crevices of his face
passing marred flesh like vines extending unto forest floor

"Hoc est languor meus
Ego praestolabor in aeternum nam finis"
said he with hand hovering over silver chaliced ****
soon, though he shall weep the golden tear of death upon slab
one of the crappiest poetry writing's I've done. Still, enjoy.
Blankly, fish-eyed
staring down the weighing scale
again the weight of her own
body pulled her under
to the cycled drug abuse
but since the pills begin to choke
gagging where once slipped through
melting her esophagus
**** and filled
****** scars scratched
live upon her bare bone arms
scorching the past upon her limbs
so far from what she wished was  truth
Words, no longer will define her
for she has none she will ever call her own
only allowed to listen she endures
those flatulent and birding calls
fat is what she felt
anorexic is what she was
lips, chapped and dripping blood
from the biting need to learn to speak
with the human carnage she's begun to carve
in an attempt to shed the excess poundage
mirrored with each slice growing thicker
aroma's filled of steamed internal fluids
hacking away until her mouth is the only piece left
Has she begun to be thin enough yet?
I will admit that I used to have an eating disorder. I will admit it. It was a dark time of my life, now shared. Judge all you want, no hard feelings.
Let's just,
pretend that we know there is a difference
     between our diamond truths and our slip of the tongue white lies
Our feigned porcelain skin we stitch to perfect ourselves
     begins to grow brittle, contorted by a breath of acid (truth or lie.)
Lies,
they've decide they love you "till death do you part"
     they can lurk within every awkward silence, so they can whittle their deceit
They wait behind doors, keep themselves hidden between cracks
     striking with their nails, they crawl towards light from under streets
Truths,
they will forever burn and scald our perfect and phony milk skins
     they tease our tongues, melt and scorch our falsely laden lips
Trickling onto chins like thickly fraught syrup made of gore
     they try to keep us from sharing, never will they let secrets slip (small or large)
Lies,
with an amiable but devilish grin they nip, splintering pounds of flesh
     they have eyes that visualize the world as a rotten corpse that needs a bite
They catch their nails upon our spines, digging in, pressuring pain until
     they can sneak into our pores, to feed their mirrored deceit into our kind
Truths,
always have their ways of keeping us "honest" to the gut wrenching core
      They fold our eyes inside one another, blinding us from reality and what really is
Crisp, kind ,and clean, they keep us frozen to how others may 'truly' feel
     they are making us diamonds and ice, frosting over the human beating heart (the both are painful)
Itty bitty,
little white lies, will always be living, alive with the holes of truth
     these truths, will still leave a faint trace of acid upon our tongues  
So, shall we continue on our journey, and pretend there's still a difference
     between our truth's and lies?
Lies, are hurtful, but yet, so is the truth.
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