eyes fogged red crisp air, dead--dry as my calm, cold skin supersaturated thoughts slowly condensing I watch as they fall I fall I fell afraid to glance towards the mirror eyes widened eyes fogged red
They told me there was a chance It would be this way For the rest of my life That it was a possibility It would be like this Forever I would stay this way For the rest of my life
They told me that it was something I couldn't control That the only thing left was acceptance But I can't accept-- And never will accept-- To accept what? To accept the only thing holding me back Is myself How can something inside me Something that is me Keep myself hostage
They told me it would help That it would help me Help me fight this illness Each morning I have to ask myself If my sickness is what I want to be Or just a slave to a bottle Every night one Each day three They say embrace who I am What I know I'll never be Because I know I'll never be free
Im thankful because they told me so They told me they love me I told them thank you