She who did not come, wasn't she determined
nonetheless to organize and decorate my heart?
If we had to exist to become the one we love,
what would the heart have to create?

Lovely joy left blank, perhaps you are
the center of all my labors and my loves.
If I've wept for you so much, it's because
I preferred you among so many outlined joys.

Im not a captive of your mind
No foreign boundary will hold me down
Think of me what you may
I will silently wear my crown

A crown of character
Born over time
Not an innocent baby
Broken & built by love divine

Grab a hold of your protruding thoughts
Don’t let them run away
In your mind, it’s your choice
The impression you conclude each day

Remove your see through box
It doesn’t fit who I am
It doesn’t make me uncomfortable
Only you. Try to understand.

I have been liberated
And I will live to what is true
Negative things conjured up in your mind
Means the only captive is you.

We throw around “I love you”
Like children playing catch
Disregard for incubated tenderness
Too impatient to let it hatch.

We throw it on the floor
***** with all kinds of mud
Disregarding potential growth
Limited as a spud.

We drag it in the dust
As if we never care
Hearts. Raw love. Precious.
Yet, not considered rare.

Perforated souls
Deadly games of fear
Initial intention: hope and love
Yet harbored pains appear

Yet smiles appear on every face
Pretending its all ok
Too hard to face true worth I suppose
So our hearts of love, become child’s play.

A common misconception
We believe the lies are true
But let’s review true treasure again
Let our understanding of love be new.

Let me attempt,
to simplify why I wont relent
Why even if there’s no consent,
my heart cant be changed or bent.

See, this life I live
not mine to take but mine to give.
No rights to claim,
No power in this world i hope to obtain.
To live is Christ, to die is gain.

But before I found understanding,
my life in shambles fading
in shame I was quickly degrading,
in a hopeless waste-filled land i was wading.

In my sin i was caught,
but with a price i was bought,
and in the truth i was taught
i stood and i fought...
Only to find myself falling once more,
i found myself in a downpour
confused not sure,
stuck without a plan or open door,
with little faith i fell to the floor.

I cried and cried,
poured out everything on my inside.
I wondered why,
why i was feeling so dry...
why answers seemed to hide...
if His peace again i would find...

But before hope is gone,
He reminds me of the cross
how He came for the hopeless and the lost,
my life surrendered the only cost...

So I lay down my pride,
my rights,
my will,
my life,
I take the nothing that i have,
and follow His plan.

Everyday i choose.
The lies i refuse.
I pray to be used,
for His glory, not abused.
I pray for His light,
I pray to be made right,
I pray during the night,
to walk by faith and not by sight.

Now, I’ve lost count
all the times He came,
rescued me again and again,
changing me never to be the same.
He never reframes,
in giving me the grace He bore in pain

Spiritual I.C.U
revived my soul and made me new.
Me, without a clue
Him, showing me what is true...
I decided my obedience was long overdue.

I live.
I breathe.
In Him I have my being
By faith I am seeing
His love is redeeming
Everyday Im believing
New mercy Im receiving
No longer am I bleeding
I received His healing
Now my hearts revealing
the passion I’ve been concealing

but fear no longer leads me,
PERFECT LOVE SET ME FREE

I dreamed a dream
but forgot as i woke
and the remnents linger on in my soul
I grab hold of the snippets
the small little pieces
Weaving them to make it seem whole
but quickly i see
its not meant to be
my patching and sewing’s in vain
Closing my eyes
walking in faith
Hoping the dream will live again.