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Jennifer Staples Feb 2014
I told him he wasn't my father
and that he couldn't ever be him.

He said he knew he couldn't replace him
But that he is more of a father
Than Kurt (my real father) would ever be.

I never apologized to him, my dream father
He told me I hurt his feelings
And that he wasn't mad just upset.

He is my father, my dream father,
And I realize it now more than anything.
This story is about my mothers boyfriend. He is like my father. My real father walked out of our lives and hasn't tried to be part of it for real for many, many years now. I love my moms boyfriend.
Jennifer Staples Feb 2014
Being punctured by him physically
Was just the beginning of my misery.

I tell my mother that he almost did
But in reality it really happened, and I was just a kid. (7 years old)

If people knew the truth about it
They'd feel sorry for me and say it wasn't my fault.

When it first happened nobody believed
However, telling my mother 3 years ago and her believing made me relieved.

Even my sister and close cousins thought I was lying
So I grew tired and gave up trying.

If you look hard enough you'll find
He really did puncture my body and mind.
This is a true story. I was 7 years old and I am now only 15.
Jennifer Staples Feb 2014
When I was in 7th grade
I began to notice that a lot of people cut themselves
Me being the type of person
who just wants to fit in
Started "being depressed"
I got mad at my mom one day
and thought people cut when they're ****** or sad
So I found a pen and started rubbing hard
Man did it burn like hell
I did it though that's not something I'm proud of
I hid it from my mom until later that night
She was arguing with me and said something
Amongst the lines of you won't hurt yourself
So I showed her the pen burn
She called her friend Zach and told him everything
He told me that if he found out I did
Something like that again he would stop talking to me
I stopped cutting or well burning myself cause I felt it wasn't worth it.
Jennifer Staples Feb 2014
I don't know how to sing my abc's backwards
I don't know how to do a cart wheel
I don't know how to write with all correct grammar
I don't know how to sew or knit
I don't know how to speak fluent French even though I kind of should seems how I've been taking it for 3-4 years
I don't know...

I don't know who anyone in my family is anymore
I don't know why my father left us,
Or why he didnt fight for us
I don't know if he thought he wasn't responsible for us or if he didn't love us anymore
I don't know why I hate to love him but I know I love to hate him
I don't know

I don't know how love happens
I don't know why love happens
I don't know why relationships don't always work, but god dont I wish they would
I don't know

I do know that I can sing my abc's frontwards,
And honestly that's all that matters
I do know that I try to write with correct grammar
I do know how to crochet
I do know

I do know that my mother never gave up on us
I do know that my mother loves us more than anything in her world
I do know that I love my mother and I don't love to hate her
I do know

I do know that love, real love, finds people not the other way around
I do know that love is a powerful, happy, and peaceful emotion
I do know that love may not always work but when it does good
I do know that people try to make love work to the best of their ability
I do know
I wrote this in hopes that people will be able to relate to this and if not I am sorry but if you do great I hope maybe it helped in some way or form.

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