All it takes is my urge to grow, and I'll be impossible to care for

"Let me ******* die!!" I scream
They drug me to make me happy, but on the inside I'm just ****** up

Once I had a chance to escape, I found a knife and slammed it into my heart

I was broken
This was my life
Now it's over
My urge grew I was impossible to stop

This was my breaking point

People joke about suicide
Think it's just a game
Think people cut for attention
Starve themselves for fame

Little did they know
The girl behind them was bipolar
Wondering why they thought it funny
To feel a complete loner

Would they finally get it
When she starved herself to death
Or hanging off the ceiling
Having taken her last breath

Then would they see
Would they actually stop to think
That a girl took her life
Cuz her daddy liked to drink

If they saw her body
Crumpled, bleeding, lying on the floor
After jumping 20 stories
Out her balcony door

If they saw her head blown in
If she took to big a fall
A rope around her neck
Her blood on the walls

Now she's gone because of you
Her spirits in the clouds
Her parents utterly confused

IS IT STILL A JOKE NOW???????

Can everyone just stop
And take a look around
Look at what we've all become

Our society is disgusting
For everyone gets judged
It does not matter who you are
Someone will fuss

If you gay your bullied
If your skinny your told your fat
If your pretty you think your ugly
Would you look at that

There's so much pressure put on us
No wonder people die
Should it be from war
Or committing suicide

You're read like a book
As soon as you come in
Not even given a chance
An opportunity to fit in

Everyone grows up
Most people too fast
Stay a kid while you can
Childhood doesn't last

It makes me want to cry
To see pain in the heart
Of those who have to hide
Who they really are

It really is disgusting
So just try to use your head
And realize just what we've become
A society that is dead

I never knew
It could happen like this
And I never understood why
Things die
But they come alive
As quickly as all time
Who knew that life could be
Such a wonderful thing
I don't think that anyone ever dies
Now just when I am finding
How life can be
I realize that
Things are never what they seem
Even in times of crisis
Everything turns out fine
And even though it may be sorrowful
To know that life goes by
And to know that time flies
Will help you know
That even the smallest moments
Is precious
Through life
And time

The black sky of majesty
Staring down underneath itself
The world black
Never to see the light of the moon

The world overflowed with rage
A rainbow only one shade
The darkest colors of mankind
The black souls, the red bloodshed

The sky sees underneath the stars
Down below the brightness of the heavens
The silver moon
Struggling to pour down on the Earth

The gold may be glorious
But the shadow are true
They tell the honest emotions of the world
The green grass is fading
Into a bittersweet grey
The water is not blue
But clear for you
A reflection of what the world really is
The world's rainbow is fading
It is turning bleak
It is a raging rainbow

When I see you
My mouth goes dry
My palms get sweaty
And I get shy

When I see you
I have to smile
Because being with you
Is worth my while

When I see you
No words can describe
The warm feeling I get
That fills me inside

When I see you
I wonder if you know
That I feel so empty
Whenever you go

When I see you
I think what would be
If you said that
You love me

The night sky filled with stars
The silver mist sweeps across the meadow
The cool night air pushes at my skin
I stare into the river hidden by trees
The tears start to stream down my cheeks

As I look down, I saw a sword near my feet
I could end all this pain here and now
But as I stare into the river
Searching for my soul, and I know
That this is not the time to die

I wipe the tears from my eyes
The wind had swept the silver mist away
And the tall grass starts to sway
As I ran away from the meadows
To home, and try to forget
What I could have done
As I lay down to sleep
I have finally found peace