Here today, gone tomorrow
Praying for your smile to come back
Even as a ghost, even as a shadow
I can't help myself but missing the good days of yore
I never saw a trace of that kind of pain behind your eyes before
But i can see; around you there's darkness and nothing more
Now i suffer from a constant ache, an ache without a cure
I can't help myself but endure
I ran out of tears early
Can you believe that i was on the verge of never seeing you again, daddy?
Please don't go, you are the best part of me
Please don't be sad, your little girl's still here and she love you more than anything

on this blank white page,
my emotions flow,
shine and glow
'till the emptiness imbibes my thoughts  
like raindrops after a drought
I  remember, tears are pockets of sorrow and pain
After 6 years, You teached me to let them rain
I believe in something now; once they dry, the healing begins

Distance is a slow asphyxiation,
A chaos that requires all of my attention
But If you were here, i would read your eyes
I would look beyond your flesh and see beneath your bones to finally fall in love with the beauty mess that you have inside
Then i would go back to your eyes, swim and drown into them
i would find all the words that were
never really said,
and i assure you, if you were here,  we would be more than alive

With hate increased,
My whole decreases
I can't forget, both of us once existed
Now, into a body too small for my big dreams, I'm condensed

In this empty room of mine
Telling myself repeatedly "I'm fine"
Moving silently, invisibly
In an endless mystery
Here comes the tears I cried from
agony

It feels like I am the only one who live with this tragedy
It feels like they're all looking, but I don't want them to see
The inside of me
How am i suppose to be everything they except me to be

Like me , they are not able to abide
I wish that I didn't have to hide
Please come back, I need you by my side
You're the only one who can hear what i really want to say
So inside, days after days,
It stays
I don't know why it happened, why it had to be this way

It haunts me when I think of how it could have been,
When i'm questioning why this happened, what could this possibly mean
This is the questions that I ask
To live away from you is my task
But this is an impossible feat,
My life without you is incomplete
I feel like everyday that passes, I become increasingly erased
I cannot be related
Again, my fears have to be covered

I want to meet myself with someone else's point of view
So my mind will be anew
Oh so desperately, for the look inside my eyes
That I can't disguise

I battle the demons inside, ever since I were five
Keeping them alive
Do they really need to survive?
With incertitude, I ran away from all the pain
shattered soul I have obtain
Oh, so ******, it was clearly impregnated into my brain
Obviously stuck in my head
Am I just trying to prove that i'm not already dead?

I am so deep in my thoughts , i could die drowned by them
Anyway, I am nothing else than a name
Yes, truth just being told,
But I am not that bold
Look in the somber tones
Of these ghastly wounds
I am like you, a listening ear
Turning into rain of tears

If darkness is where I belong
Then why am I afraid?
If this is what I've become
Then what was the choice I made?

A chain links us together, but it's a little broken by the distance between us, and nobody seems to care
Who cares when a thought doth enter?
When I have all, except the power?
I can't dispel the intruder
I am all, except the master

I'm just scared that I might fail, afraid of trying
Instead of standing, I am waiting
I'm stuck in the memory of the past and now i'm screaming
The fear tries to swallow my soul, my tiny acid tears are dripping
Too much dominos behind me are falling
The only thing I can do now is counting the hours that doesn't have an end,
Wondering if the breaks will ever mend

The pain that you has seen in my eyes is now bigger in my heart
But it consoles me that you had a new start
And even if i'm always reflecting the past that I will probably never recover
So the pain that i feel because we cant be together
Even if the reflection of the past is here, Im so glad to hear you confide, however
Even if the past is just a reflection, don't forget that you can tell me
whatever
And i'll always love you the same Wherever,
Forever

For our 7 months baby,
Let us cuddle closely
And let me tell you a story
when I thought that my place was on the floor, on my knees
I let you know my deepest fears
And you sets my mind at ease
There used to be so many thoughts
that rolled across my mind
But ever since I met you, there's
always the same one that I find
through every cracks, under every rocks , someone like you I have been searching
Now , from not hearing your voice ,for not seeing you laugh, I'm dying
And while your eyes shine so brightly
my heart beats to the tempo of your  melody
In our heart, we hold destiny
And in our smile I see eternity
you're the song, the story that i need to be
You deserve it all, from here to the moon
Oh god you make me swoon
For our 7 months baby,
Let us cuddle closely
And let me tell you something crazy
There is no more wounds on my knees
No more fears
With your melody, you set my mind at ease
There used to be so many thoughts
that rolled across my mind
But ever since I met you, there's
always the same one that I find
I have to share this thought with you,
And it's that i love you with all my heart
Oh you, my beautiful work of art

And then my eyes met yours
Oh God, did I see the heaven's doors?

As the door opened, time got interrupted
Moments like this can't be wasted

Like the first time i saw your hair dancing , i suddenly knew why god made the wind
my mind and my eyes got blind

I just want to feel your soul against mine
the lovely curve of your spine
Your soft cheek on mine
And my fingers on your waist like they already knew the lines

Soul pieces,
nose kisses,

I'd catch it with my fingertips
Press it to my lips

I wish i could run my fingers through your hair right now and fall asleep to the sound of your heart beat at night
Cause now i'm looking over to have you in my sight

I love when your warmth starts to creep
And that suddenly, I’m drowsing into sleep

i feel like i'm connected to every atom in your body
When I feel so lonely
l need you only

On the fourteenth my dear,
Would you like to hear

After 6 months of loving you,
After so many things we've been through,

I love you
And I'll always do
❤️