I am so broken it hurts
do you even notice?
do you even acknowledge it?
do you even care?

I am petrified of hurting you
because I know how it feels to be hurt.
It will injure your heart and pierce your brain
like it did mine when I suffered this pain
of realising I was guilty
of something that
I am to blame.

See it is not your fault
I have become this way
for it caught me
before I understood the reality
of this pain.

It creeps around your body like a bug
crawling across every inch it can
controlling your every move.
No one seems to understand
not one at all
how I think this way.
It covers your every thought breath and move
it is something I cannot escape.

I survived the first time
I survived the second
I am not sure I can survive a third

You should not adjust your mind
to anything you see
the world is corrupt and unorganised
something we should not be fooled by.

We are destroying everything around us
with what we believe is right
when really we should open our eyes
a take a step back from reality.