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Jenn Yeo Nov 2014
I never know when it'll happen

But it'll hit me

like a wave
like a wall
like pavement
You could have stood up any time
And I wonder how you couldn't have thought of your friends
or your family
or me
and rose off your knees to continue to breathe
You could have stood up anytime
I wonder if you knew that I'd never hear a guitar the same
once I knew how tightly the string was wrapped around you
as if it was a snake and you were its prey
you could have stood up anytime
I wonder if you knew that every time we pass train tracks in the car
I have to lift up my feet
and I think about how no matter which one I cross
it'll lead me to where you were that night
You could have stood up anytime
I wonder if you knew what would happen to me
that'd I'd spend time in the hospital
get voices in my head
blame myself, blame everyone else
You could have stood up anytime
I wonder if you knew that I would think
day after day
sometimes on purpose, other times not
that you could have stood up anytime
*But you didn't.
Jenn Yeo Oct 2014
When you arrive I am so relieved to see you
because whenever you're around I feel such relief
we only need a brief introduction
Before I pull you near to me
I hold you so close
and feel you against my skin
all that has once plagued me
goes down the drain again
I can't seem to let you go
I love the warmth you bring
but when I finally let you go
I need you close again
I repeat this till I feel better
or light headed or sore
or sometimes I stop to clean
The blood that lies on the floor
Jenn Yeo Oct 2014
And with all the pain that plagues me
All the unfortunate events I've endured
The knives in the back
and those that slide across my body more
With memories filled with heartache
and a mind filled with rage
my life has been a horror novel
I'm afraid to turn the page
With all these things that haunt me
including mistakes that I've made
Nights I've spent alone
or haven't left my bed for days
Made myself sick
but couldn't clean up the mess
So much in the head
but empty in the chest
close my eyes and wish
but nothing ever comes true
open my eyes and see
that no one ever follows through
cried for help
to have the door slammed in my face
offer up my affection
to just be turned away
the only words I hear from others
are lies they wished I'd tell myself
No one wants to deal
with a girl who needs help
Some nights I scream
but every night I cry
Here I stand still
No one appreciates I'm alive
thanks.
Jenn Yeo Sep 2014
I recently lost my voice
Good thing I have nothing left to say
And you can't  force me to speak anymore
Jenn Yeo Sep 2014
In the end what it comes down to
is all those who said they'd be there aren't
and all those who said they care don't
and all those who said they promised broke it like it was never made
Because as humans we don't care about anything
Not our earth, not ourselves and certainly not eachother
tonight I needed you, I needed ******* someone
and you weren't here and maybe you just never were
Who are you anymore because it feels like I never knew you at all
Jenn Yeo Sep 2014
The sad truth is I would have done anything to be yours
and I still catch the heartache dripping through my pours
covering me in a layer of disgust until I can scrape it off again
but I notice myself thinking what we could have been
and maybe when all my skins cells replace each other once again
I'll live in a body that you haven't yet met
a body that won't beg to be yours
because it's never felt your soothing touch or heard your kind words
Jenn Yeo Sep 2014
I only write when I'm falling in love or when I want to die;
Can you guess what's on my mind tonight?
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