Feelings awakened that had lay dormant for years
With them vulnerability surfaces & brings several fears
Special & adored is how you make me feel
Yet insecurities question whether or not it's for real
I want to believe everything you say is true
Looking into your eyes, I am completely drawn to you
I'm not sure where it comes from, this intense connection
I just can't explain these strong feelings of affection
My heart knows no boundaries, it does not restrain
No matter what doubts my mind may have, these feelings remain.

They say she is a pretty girl; she's got everything going for her
But her life has been a painful blur
A mother who was always addicted
As brothers do, pain was what hers constantly inflicted
Her stepfather tried to provide her a better life
Away from drug & alcohol dependant family & all that strife
But no one is perfect & even he made damaging mistakes
Punishing her for nighttime accidents caused her deep heartaches
These things caused her to have low self-esteem
Not just a little bit, but to the extreme
When anyone complimented her on her beauty
She thought her mom paid them to, feeling it was her duty
Her brother beat her up quite often
Which caused her inner strength to soften
Sometimes her brother would "take" her friends away
Leaving her all alone to play
All of these things further battered her mentality
Constant fear of not being good enough tarnished her personality
Looking for love, she went from one bad relationship to another
But she really needed to find it within herself & look no further

Why are they talking about me behind my back?
The boys talking about hooking up, maybe getting me in the sack
The girls tell lies about me, they are on the attack
Picking me apart, trying to find areas where I may lack
Here I thought the school games had ended
I thought I was amongst grown-ups, I realize not, & I am offended
Their childish gossiping shows their immaturity
Not only that, it also shows their insecurity
If I were the immature type,
I might get all caught up in this hype
But I am not, and to their level I will not fall
Confident of my strengths, I will continue to stand tall
They can say whatever they wish, it will not hurt me at all

This is a mess
I must confess
I am depressed
It's because I've been so stressed
I haven't been able to get any rest
But I still think that this is best
There is still a part of me that loves you; it's true
But a bigger part of me that is so miserable with you
So even though love is still in the equation
Misery has over-powered that with its invasion
At this point I think it's best to break apart
Each of us try and make a new start
It's just best for us to separate
It should've worked by now but it just wasn't our fate
So now it's time to say goodbye
I am sure there will be times when I break down and cry
I'll worry about you and hope that you will be okay
And of course I'll include you at night when I pray.

I was once loved; I was once cherished
I was a wonderful feeling that has since perished
I don't know what has changed
To cause love and I to be estranged
Somehow I must have veered onto the wrong path
Along the way I must have incurred Cupids wrath
Yet I am still the same girl I used to be
Except with a little more maturity
I still have a caring heart, big and true
For friends and family, there isn't a thing I wouldn't do
Helping others gives me such a joyous feeling
To my battered heart and soul, it is so healing
Good person or not, true love just isn't in the stars for me
But that is fine, I still have my friends and family
Never knowing true love is something I have to accept
For with man-woman relationships, I am simply inept.

Listen here boy
My heart is not a toy!
Treat it with care
Treat me like a lady fair
Treat me with respect
That is what I expect
Treat me like a lady should be treated
Or else things are gonna get heated
I want to be wined & dined at least once a week
If you can't bring it, we don't need to speak
Treat me like a lady should be treated
Or else you just need to be seated
If you don't plan to treat me like your queen, sit this one out
Cuz you won't be right for me, there is no doubt
Oh, and I ain't no holla back girl by the way
So you best make me a priority or just go away

Dear Lord, will you be there when I pass?
Even though I wasn't always there at mass?
Will you still take my hand?
Will you still lead me into the promised land?
Dear Lord, I know I didn't always do everything right...
But I tried to be good, with all of my might.
Will you still forgive me as the bible does state?
Or am I in for a different fate?