A soft glow emanates from the place where
there is no longer you and no longer me
yet brilliant shards of light, slowly fading,
still buzz and hum  

Never would I trade your memory
in exchange for hole left by your loss
as I found this morning, by my bedside
a needle and some iridescent thread

And being reasonable,
I can only assume
you left for me whilst sleeping
that which I needed
to knit my life anew

Like so many before,
sure that you will resist
when the tide draws high

Once across the line,
too deep the swells
and how quickly resolve weakens
in the face of desire

It isn’t wine that you are drinking whilst they prey like dancers, on your unique brand of insecurity as you give yourself over now oh so willingly as if to say ‘I am no more than what you tell me that I am or that you want me to be’

Until you are drained of all that is you, and left floating beside your potential

When they call, and they will, simply turn left and head toward the shore on the higher ground

The view there is quite lovely

The one you didn’t get
But I know you always wanted

I taught you too well the siren song that wins my heart

You were a fastidious student,
now as the piper, play each note to perfection

But try as a I might,
I can not convince myself to mistake your song for love
to follow where you lead

I can not unsee the cracks in the plaster
that show through in the daylight

Or betray myself once more,
as I have so many times in the past

Though I appreciate how hard you’ve tried
This is where I must leave you

You are that moment

Betwixt blinding light
and deafening sound

That moment

Suspended mid air, particles standing on edge

You are the silence swarmed with anticipation,

Ephemeral, yet eternal

A moment, a lifetime,
how different are they, I can’t know

So bright, beautiful,
Dangerously so,

and then, the inevitable boom

Though I’ve not yet met you,

I am here

in between the flash and the bang
where you’ll find me

I've seen such eyes before
the way you look at me
curious, enticed, enamored

you are young and beautiful
but I am not for you
nor you for me
we will need to just leave it at that