I want to be that girl with the perfect boyfriend.
That girl that has friends til the end.
I wanna be that girl that no one talks sh*t about.
That girl that always laughs everything out...
I want to be that girl that gets compliments everyday.
I want to be that girl thats happy to stay.
I want to be that girl that is known for something good.
That girl that always would but never should.
I want to be that girl that wakes up with a smile.
That girl that makes living wothwhile.
But, Im not that girl..
Im someone else..
I try and i try but i can never be perfect.
I guess me trying was never worth it

You may think you know.
Your farthest from knowing.  
I can put a smile on my face , just to show the world..
They think they know, they have no idea.
The smiles are sad.
The laughter is tears.
When you go to bed hoping you never wakeup..
You wakeup the next daycrying, still moving on.
Some say the more you move on the stronger you get.
I haven't got stronger one time yet.
Moving on doesn't make you stronger.
It makes you weak.
When no ones there to catch you fall, you have to catch yourself.
Sometimes you fall..
Being independent is good.
But, being lonley to me.
its just sad.

Lay down tonight.
Thinking of you before i go to the sleep.
Stare at the ceiling for awhile.
Drift off into dreams about you and me.
I never ment to hurt you.
Everything just went downhill.
now im stuck with no one.
I know theres been others.
but, not like you.
ive always felt the same way.
I just messed things up.
I know its too late.
Lay down tonight.
In silence and tears.
Wondering what my life would be like.
If you were still here...

wasted my time.
My last words to you will be saying goodbye.
I've thought for awhile,and ill think some more
This time its over im done forsure.
U played me once and you'll play me again.
I dont even want to be your friend.
I've been saying this forever but, this is the end.  
I hope you dont read this because you probably wont care.
Now move along you have weakness to share.

Break all the lies and shoot them out with pain.
Throw a frag its the name of a grenade.
Dont be a noob.
Show off ur skill.
Free for all gives me a thrill.
**** all the fgs while they sit there and camp.
Put on your gameface and look around.
Dead mans glitch, ill just lay on the ground.
Get a nuke and call it the game.
watch the other team sulk in shame.
Hey look a friend request.
who is this fg.
They seen your a girl it doesnt matter if ur bad.
add+add+add+:)

I'd die for you.
You would'nt even fight for me.
I'd cry for you.
You wouln't even lie for me.
I'd catch a bullet for you.
You would still be living life free.
I'd lay awake all night for you.
You wouldnt even dream of me.
I never gave up on you.
You gave up on me....

Eventually people stop talking I understand.
Iit feels just a week ago you were holding my hand.
I thought it wasn't just going to be me anymore.
Until the last time I talked to you,you walked out the door.
Evey night before i go to sleep I wonder why things change.
It seems as times fly past nothing stays the same.
I wish I can go back in life and fix my mistakes.
I would save alot of love lost and heartbreaks.