Not only seeing your smile.
Not only seeing you threw your worst.
Not only seeing past your imperfections.
Not only watching you go threw life so easy.
Not  the sleepless nights i know your sound asleep.
Not  the fact that everything reminds me of you.
Not only thinking about you all day.
Not the feeling that you have no clue im here
Not only dreaming of you
Its not the fact that i watch you just watch things go by
The only thing..is knowing your not mine.
The hardest thing is
.........living without you.

The simplest things aren't so simple.
Seems like the harder i try, the more i fail.
The more i fail, the less i care.
Something goes good.
Something goes wrong
Iv'e lost hope a million times.
but, hope isn't forever lost.
You have to bealive.
You have to care.
you have to put a smile on your face.
Even if no one is there..
Don't ever expect someone to take care of you.
Expect to do things on your own.  
One day there isn't going to be someone..
To help you through your worst.
You have to know how to help yourself
when your hurt

When you know someones broken by the way they stare at nothing..
The way they look into your eyes.
The moment you want to cry everytime you see them.
The hardest part is knowing they don't even want to be alive.
they are just waiting..
To watch someone fall apart...
Just to be able to look back and remember the day they were happy.
I'd give you a million of my smiles.
Just to see you smile for one day...
Look into your eyes, and know your feeling okay..
I'd give you all the smiles ive ever smiled.
Just to make your problems go away..
I'd do anything to see you truly happy.
for one single day...

She hides her problems
She wants no attention
She wants no one to feel sorry.
Gives her bad intentions.
She uses a smile to hide her frown.
She will be gone, before anyoone figures it out.
She feels she shouldn't be here.
Wasting her life away..tear after tear.
She takes everything to heart.
Shes insecure, she got off on a bad start.
Thats just how she is.
When she looks back it makes her sad.
Why cant she be the happy, she use to have.
Shes here for a reason no one knows why.
Shes here because she doesn't have the courage to say goodbye.
No one knows her name..
Shes just that girl.
Thats all she'll ever be......

Have no confidence because no one gives me a reason to.
No compliments because ill never be good enough for you.
All i have in conciousness, building up inside me.
I try and try but, im not the person you want me to be.
I'd rather die then be lonley.
Things aren't that easy..

She loves the way the silence sways.
All alone with an expressionless face.
She doesn't know if she should cry.
Or be happy shes still alive.
Asks herself everyday, if theres a reason she has to stay.
The reson never comes to her head.
As soon as she wakesup she wants to go back to bed.
She knows reality will never come close to her dreams.
When you look at a person.
They aren't always as they seem