in the morning
when the sun arrives
and there is a new day
i am so disgusted
by you
and i wish
you would leave me
alone

but at night
when i am lonely
i am in love
with you
with all of my heart

when i was
a child
a bird flew into
our window
and died
i cried when my mother said
that it happens all the time
and i wondered
why they didn't just
change direction

but now that i am
in love with
you
and i know that i will
crash
when you stop loving me
i understand
that it is so hard
to turn around and
avoid the window
because what if
it for once
was open

when we first
met
your hands were still
and unoteable

when we fell
in love
your hands were
in mine
on my lips
in my hair
all over my skin

now
they are wrapped around
my throat

and I wonder
if it is any different

i'm pretty sure
no one
truly
likes me
and i can absolutely not
write poetry

I think
that
(perhaps)
I could fall
(a little bit)
in love with
you

if i die
young
bury me in
satin
lay me
down
on
a bed
of
roses
sink me
in the river at
dawn
send me
away
with the words of
a love song

i was foolish enough
to belive
that you could ever
be with me

because i
am a mystery
and not even
i
can solve it
so why should
you
want to try