i don't know what to say except for that
i'm sorry for loving you so one-sidedly
and i understand that i smothered you so completely,
and you jumped to me too quickly.
and i shouldn't have flirted with you when you were so emotionally unstable.

i drew you in just to have you spit me back out four months later,
and a deep pull of ***** won't erase you from the deepest corridors of my mind.

and i believed you when you said nothing would change;
you promised,
you promised,
you promised.

i deserve to feel this deep-rooted despair
sinking lower and lower into my chest
and how far can you drop
until you reach the bottom?

I suffer from a disease
making me
never want to have *******
with another man again.
Remission
is my love's last name.

Praise the spells and bless the charms,
I found April in my arms.
April golden, April cloudy,
Gracious, cruel, tender, rowdy;
April soft in flowered languor,
April cold with sudden anger,
Ever changing, ever true --
I love April, I love you.

By lovely harbor you sang, brisk and clever.
Let me have this one thing, forever.
Never my love?
Or do I mean assailant.
Bubble no more, your dreams are ever present.

“You have a kind of sick desperation in your laugh.” – Tyler Durden, Fight Club




You have a kind of sick                                                             ­                                       
desperation in your laugh.
You always think of others.
They never do,
                          on your behalf.

He’s there        you’re him.
You’re here      he’s you.
He says     he’s     Tyler.
And you are?
                   Who?


Clinging to the manic sense
you get when you’re a l o n e .
String up the failing,
                                     f
                                       a
                                          l
                   ­                         l
                                              i
                ­                                n
                               ­                   g
                                                      words,
   ­      you feel you must atone.

Who are you really?
Slipping
    f   l   a  i l i n    g
unmissed and left to burn.
Black and darkened
Your heart unharkened
The page is left,

                            unturned.

From the second I wake up it's like I'm in hell
I feel like I shouldn't belong here
As if my place was on another planet
Or six feet underground
It's unhealthy to have this kind of mindset
But then again, who the **** even cares?

You were apart of my life
Didn't see you much
Didn't play a big part
But when you passed
It stil left a hole in my heart
Wish i could have known you more
It tears me apart
To know that i can't change it now