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Jasmine Roper Oct 2016
"Quality not Quantity"  
that's what they say right?

Be satisfied with one great instead of a thousand lames.

You have the greatest, and she's begging to be there for you, and you just won't let her.

You'd rather go on and on about all the little things the others have done.
You choose to ignore the all the amazing things the great one still does.

You complain about how they hurt you and treat you wrong.
But the person that's listening is trying to treat you right.

You get upset and say no one wants you, that you'll die alone.
But the ******* the phone is dying because she wants you.

You still expect her to be there for you even though you want nothing to do with her.
She knows she deserves better, but you won't let her find better.

You get jealous when her attention isn't fixed on you,
But get annoyed when it is.

She just wants to be the great one.  
But you're satisfied with a thousand lames.
Jasmine Roper Oct 2016
I know you love me,
don't know why you wouldn't.
Jasmine Roper Oct 2016
When we talk, the world doesn't exist.
We sit, in the dark, in the sun, in blank space.

There's no time, no air, no pain.
We don't even breathe.

Constant conversation,
sometimes without words.
Whether it be glances, tears, or yawns.

It's like a dream,
not the kind you have while you sleep
or the kind you imagine as a child.
The kind of dream that can't be described.
It just is what it is. No one outside of it understands.
And that's ok.

It's not for anyone except you and I.

We talk people, politics, love, hate, sorrow, joy.
We laugh, we cry, we fight, we smile.

We talk until words don't even make sense.
Until my speak slurs to a mumble, we both grow mute.
And your words become snores.  

Then we wake up, and do it all over again.
Jasmine Roper Oct 2016
I don't need you
But I make myself believe I do.

I don't want you
But I force myself to think I do.

****, I don't even like you
But I like to pretend I do.

I don't gain anything,
I don't learn anything,
I don't enjoy it for a second.

I'm losing myself
too busy forcing myself to find you.

I constantly try to be what you want.  
Trying to make myself good enough for you.

But that's the issue,
I can't be good enough for you
no matter how hard I try.

You don't want me, and I don't want you
It's simple
There's nothing else we can do.

It's almost funny though,
we constantly agree to disagree,
But our compromise is a fight.

We can't just walk away
But we hate being together.

The bond we built
can't be broken.
And if it did, we wouldn't survive.

See isn't funny?
We "don't like each other",
Right?
Jasmine Roper Feb 2016
I don't like the way I feel.
The way I feel about myself,
The way I feel about you,
The way I feel about us.

I wish I didn't love you,
It'd be easier that way.
I wouldn't have to feel guilty about anything.

I wish that you loved me back,
but i'm also so glad you don't.

I hate that I feel like i'm letting you down,
I feel like I constantly disappoint you.

I hate the way I feel when I talk to you,
I feel like all i'm capable of doing is not going to be enough.

Maybe I don't love you,
I know I love everything about you.
I love your smile,
your eyes,
your laugh,
your strength,
your thoughts,
your heart,
your hands,
your soul,
your everything.
But maybe I just don't love you.

I really thought I did,
I feel like I do,
You keep trying to convince me I don't.

So I hate the way I feel,
Then again,
I'm so glad I feel the way I do.
Only because it's about you.
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