If I didn't text you back that first time we could have avoided the entire situation.

If I ignored your calls, I never would have fell for your voice.

If I didn't face time you before I slept, your image wouldn't appear in my dreams.

If I blocked you from my memory, I wouldn't have created a vision.

If you were one year older or if I was one year less, we never would have meet.

If one thing was out of place I could have avoiding loving you.

If one thing was placed differently, you may have loved me back.

How do you expect me to be ok?
You say keep your head up
But ignore me when it's down.

How do you expect me to be ok?
You say smile, it'll get better.
But you laugh when it get's worse.

How do you expect me to be ok?
You tell me to stop getting hurt.
But you're the main one causing the pain.

How do you expect me to be ok?
You tell me to look at the brighter side.
But everything in my world is pitch black.

How do you expect me to be ok?
You tell me I'm a survivor.
But you're watching me die.

How do you expect me to be ok?
When you're the only one who doesn't care if I'm ok or not.

Everyone moves on so fast.

But then there's me.

Sitting here waiting for someone who has never even thought I was cute.

Crying my heart out for someone who couldn't care less about how I feel.

Is it wrong to miss you?

At one point we didn't go a day without saying hi.

I grew so dependent upon you, I never expected you to disappear the way you did.

I just wish I could turn back time.

I wish I could be everything you want.

If only I could pause the world.

In fear of making the wrong choice,
I refuse to choose

To protect myself from getting hurt,
I avoid the situation completely

To stop myself from picking you,
I  run from you

I'm too afraid to try to love you,
In fear of you not loving me.

Hands?
Cold.
Skin?
Pale.
Teeth?
Rotten.
Breath?
Stale.
Bones?
Broken.
Heart?
Black.
Pulse?
Gone.
Life?
        Lack.