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Jaz Dec 2013
You know,
The good thing about saying that
You don't like hugs
Is that they never ask

Why
Jaz Dec 2013
I've long grown used to your absence
And your presence only disturbs me.

It upsets the balance of daily life and
Tips the scales of normality up to a point where
I really can't live with you.

I can't stand the sight of you.

I just hate it that your friends don't see
That side of you.

I really hate it that they think
You're some goody-two-shoes.
Maybe you are and my opinion is
Biased as always but
I swear if they'd seen
The drunk side to you,
The perverted side to you,
The ******* ***-ing side to you,
Maybe they wouldn't want to
Meet you so much.

But yet, yet you do the house work.

That's the only plus point, I guess.
I don't know, that point throws me into confusion.
Are you a good man or are you not?

If you do the housework, it means you care right?
But but, there are so many things that say you're not.
I don't want your money, I don't even want your time anymore.

I just don't want to see you.

Even your friends think you travelled a lot,
Even they think you neglected me throughout my childhood.
Well, maybe you just realised that in recent years but

It's too late now.

I don't want your time anymore.
I don't want your money.
I don't want your ******* love.

I just want you to go
Far far away, so maybe,
She'd be happy and
I'd be happy.

But you ******* clean the house.

And I rarely do.
That always makes me feel like
Some unfilial kid who's
Making her parent a slave.

But I do do housework.
Right?
What the hell are you thinking?
He's not good because he does the housework.
It just means your bad because you don't...
Right?
Jaz Dec 2013
It's always hard to sleep on soccer night:
The drinking, the shouting,
The occasional puking stench
Reeking from the living room.

It's always hard to sleep on soccer night.
Jaz Dec 2013
My screams go far and wide,
Their frequency though, it seems,
Has reached such a desperate pitch that
It can only be picked up by few.
The louder I try to howl
The higher the frequency again,
And it's reaching one so high
That we're moving into ultrasound.

Maybe that's why they don't hear me.
Unheard cries of terror
Jaz Dec 2013
I've had my share of pervs.
I've been groped.
I've been peeped.
I've seen them watch ****.
I've watched them play with themselves.
I've seen them drunk and hanging with women.
Yeah, I've had my share of pervs.
The only thing that's unchecked on the
Perv's checklist is:
Getting *****.

And I pray to God it stays unchecked.
Jaz Dec 2013
We're both tired, aren't we?
Me of lying and
You

Of only knowing I'm lying.
But I still don't want to harm you.
Jaz Dec 2013
Depression walked into my bedroom tonight.
He shoved me all the problems,
Piled them up high, even past the sky.
Then He tipped over the weights and it came crashing

                                                       ­                                         Down
        
          ­                                                                 ­           Down

                                                ­                                                
                ­                                                                 ­            Down.

Crushing
My every being.

Anxiety walked into my bedroom tonight.
He stole my breath and suppressed my lungs,
Gripped my throat so tight that my soul left my body
And scooted away, flying back home with Depression.

Loneliness walked into my bedroom tonight.
Revealed once again the rejections and isolation,
The pressure to fit in and
The reminders that I can't do anything properly.
The times I was ignored, the times I was shamed,
The times the whole world walked out on me
(Though they never came in).

I thought I would've felt
Alone.
Isolated.
Abandoned.


But thank God for Anxiety and Depression,
At least they stayed with me.
Because at least then, I felt alive.
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