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Jay 1988 Dec 2016
Look at me now, my old friend
You know me better than I knew myself
Look at the way we’ve changed
But we’re still the same
Just like we were at 14 summers old
In the shelter of the ferris wheel, beneath the carousel
Behind the rattling of the penny machines
Or the park we knew so well
We drifted away

Remember that night, you screamed believe me
When I tell you you’re the one
I should have listened maybe things would have been different
I played the judge, the judge was wrong
In your summer dress, your long black hair
And your face hiding behind that makeup you wear
Was there any doubt in your commitment?
Was my commitment ever there
I made a mistake when I was young and I sent you down the road
You never looked back because it hurt too much
I should have kept you for myself
But we drifted away

Look at me now, there’s grey paint in my hair
Or at least that’s the story I tell
I wear a mask, to hide the lines my dear, but you knew me all too well
Time on my side, time against me
The older I get the more I know now
That when I was young, I was hasty and I should have never spoken out loud
The demons that danced around the fire inside
That made me loose myself
The way fate played her hand so I was left to stand near the park bench all alone
The summer was hot, the summer was sweet, the morning rainclouds
Your naked feet, your perfume, left in the park
The lights from under the Ferris wheel, turned to dark
I should have kept you for myself
I should have asked you don’t go, just stay
But we drifted away
Jay 1988 Dec 2016
Seems so long ago, but I could never forget you
I was Marlon Brando, you were my biggest fan
I never knew your name, to me you were beauty
I wanted you so bad, I wanted more than I could have
You told me you were a dreamer, look at the world out there
There’s people with broken hearts, Marlon I’m scared
You told me you were a wondering heart, but you’ve become a little stuck
So I kiss the cross around my neck and whisper, lord wish me luck
If I could tell you tonight, that your world would be fine
All the problems I’d take from your shoulders, and make them all mine

Took me by the hand, I placed a ring on your finger
Girl I can write love songs all night long, but I ain’t no singer
Then you look in my eyes, tell me you’ll never forget me
I am Marlon Brando, you’re my biggest fan
And all those nights we shared, honey like I was the only one
And all those nights we laughed, where have those nights gone
Cigarette smoke lingers, wine stains on the floor
Our arguments still drift through the air, my heads pressed against the door

And when I look at you, I still see
The woman so long ago, that wanted me
Somewhere beneath all the heartbreak, crossed words we said
I’ll hold on to you tightly girl, your heart’s not getting broken yet
I was Marlon Brando, you were my biggest fan
But without you by my side girl, I’m just an ordinary man
You told me you’re just an ordinary girl
I’m your biggest fan
Jay 1988 Nov 2016
When I was a boy, I’d watch the rain
race down the window pane
I’d look out into the autumn street and watch lovers hand in hand, leaves at their feet
and I grew a little older
and the days were long and colder
the rain drops kept on falling
and I could feel your beauty calling, I fell for you
look at you over there, your long brown hair, your sun kissed skin I beg you let me in
look at your big green eyes, how I wish those soft pink lips were mine
there have been a million beauty’s
but you just cut straight through me
and your face was just a picture, it haunted me in the dead of the night
in this town I call my home,
I take up the throne I’m the king of kings
and in the bustling bars of my desires, I’m my own victim
there’s no other girl around,
in the streets that scar this town that I’d rather hold
and you must know this throne, I’d give it all up for you
look at you over there, your long brown hair, your sun kissed skin, I beg you let me in
look at your big green eyes, how I wish those soft pink lips were mine
and when you walk out from your shelter,
I just melt, and I see the way the boys look too
just give me one chance ?
sure there are other girls, I cold romance
but you went out fishing,
I was in the ocean wishing, I saw you and you hooked me
my god you’re such a beauty
I wish you could just see my heart weep
I’ve seen your face a thousand nights, a million times and for lips to taste as good as yours well it should be a crime
tell me are you real ?
Let every other boy, have there toys, let every prince, have his war to win, let every queen, have her dream I want nothing else but you
Louise, look at me, I’m just a dreamer all laid out to bare,
you could **** me right now, with a single stare, don’t look at me like that
If I can’t hold you once, then I know this life’s unfair, just look at you …. Over there
In this war where there’s only one soldier, please just let me hold you
And stop fighting, it’ll be alright, let me release the burden of your beauty, tonight
Look at you over there, your long brown hair, your sun kissed skin I beg of you please, let me in
Look at your big green eyes, how I wish those soft pink lips were mine, well they are tonight
And if tonight’s the only night you love me I could die tomorrow, let some other fool watch you, then have their piece of sorrow
Because one night with you louise is all it’s going to take
to let me live unburdened but my foundations will be shaken
I’ve had my chance, my chance was taken, I’ve dreamed of you and my dreams were made, I can rest easy now, knowing I’ve known you … my sweet Louise , knowing I’ve known you.
Jay 1988 Sep 2016
The door was open
And from then on I condemned myself
I was lost and I was broken
Inside the store where in the light of day
Pretty women buy new clothes
The lights were out but the locks weren't on even though the sign read closed
I took my chance and lined my pockets with money from the till
And from the window across the pavement watching with tears on her cheeks was stacey, she was still
I raced in the shadows of the bingo halls
Fives flew from my pocket
Landed in a puddle I fell to my knees
Picked one up and then I dropped it

The sirens ran out
They filled the air my blood ran cold this wasn't what I wanted
I used to have a job that paid the bills and filled my rover
Until one winters morning the forman came in and said "sorry guys the work is over"
Then all I had was the clothes on my back and last months money in the bank
Not even enough remained to fill my trusty rovers tank
Things got so bad my wife packed her bags
And headed off down town
Now she dances with the sirens that
Hunt these streets just trying to track me down

In a darkened corner
I lift my blanket over me behind the skip trying to stay warm
Awoken by the screaming and hounds Barking they jumped me like a swarm
I was caught in the glow of the blue lights flashing and hatred in their eyes
They pulled me up and pushed me out onto
the main street and into the sky

And there was stacey
Her long brown hair was still as young as the day we first met
Fifteen years ago I held her in my arms where in the church we were wed
I bowed my head in shame as she asked me to explain
And all I said was

The door was open
And from then on I've condemned myself
I'm lost and I am broken
I'm hungry and confused, it feels like I am over
I used to have a wife, a house I used to have a rover
Until the works shut down and I was left wondering around chasing fivers along the ground
My fingers bleed from scratching he dirt and my skin is cracked and broken
....The door was open
Jay 1988 Sep 2016
Burning candles and red painted wood, in the corner of the room
That’s where the stolen bar stool stood, that’s where you sit every night
Just playing with your guitar, in your long red gypsy skirt, encased in candle smoke and red painted wood
You invited me back to yours, never told me what for, for that you left my mind guessing
But I see you see the way I look at you; I guess this is my confession
In the kitchen sink, pots are collecting dust; i sort of figured you don’t have much company
On the floor the clothes you wore yesterday, laid out like an epiphany of what’s to be
You’re brown eyes, they saw me looking, then you walked over to me
You could have walked forever; you could have cut straight through me
With each step you take, your clothes slipped off, until all you wore was that red laced thong
Still lingering in the air was your guitar song and my confession
The window partly open, I smelt the pine trees, felt the autumn breeze
My hands wrapped around your waist so hard, you let out a beautiful scream
That never came out, your lips rode across my body, I was your highway, you were a lost passenger trying to find your way home so throughout the night you rode me
My hard hands were scarred, from the years of work and drinking games I’d played, the sun turned out her light, I shut the blinds, my hands ventured to the air between your thighs as on the bed you laid
Her bare breast left nothing much to the imagination, my fingers rolled across them; I’m just a red blooded male here to fill my obligations
She opened herself to me so I let myself in, the sweat poured from my forehead straight to her skin,
I kissed her feet; my tongue stroked her legs, and then ventured back to her bare chest
On the way her mouth opened her sweet neck tipped straight back
Exposing the whiteness beneath her chin and in my hands was her hair, a beautiful jet black
And in that moment, her white skin felt so soft, as we lay and touch each other tenderly
Then she mentioned something about us being forever, I got dressed and took my leave
I’m just a ******* red blooded man trying to fill my boots, not looking for committed relations
I left that woman lying on the bed, remembering all of my confessions
She could be there, a long, long time
Jay 1988 Sep 2016
Sunday morning, should have been some warning, something I didn’t see
You pulled up into my life with your ripped jeans on and said “come and take a ride with me”
The ride won’t be easy, people might get hurt but we’re gonna have some fun
Like with the car roof down and the radio screaming tramps like us are born to run
In that 5 door ford, those summer nights I adored when we would just drive along the beach
Picking up those girls in their short summer skirts outside the bar on Clifton Street
Remember when we pulled up the car and headed into the town
Those nights you knew something was, going down
Remember when I had your back, I knew that you had mine, like two brothers from a separate blood line
I took you home to my family, I was 19 years old you were twenty three, that was the only difference between the two of us, we’re just two unrelated brothers out to have us some fun
Those random drives, those random nights those beautiful random girls and those random fights
The bruises you made from the words that you said, forgotten on a Sunday morning when I went home to bed
And the very next day you would call me, asking when will I next be free
When I’m with you I laugh like all the old friends do, I say you just get me and you know I get you!
At twenty one, the fun had only begun, our arms we matched with the same colored ink
And if I saw a girl I thought I could marry one day I’d always ask you my brother “what do you think”
Out in the love hunting bars, we search for those town girls, it seems like that was a different world
You told me you were getting married, I told you that I was too
I was the best man by your side at the altar, when you told my replacement that I do
Even in the darkest hours, my phone waits for you to ring
The sun comes up every morning, and the birds still sing
My phone gathers dust waiting for you next to call
I thought aint life just a funny old thing
Jay 1988 Sep 2016
There's a snowflake drifting down the alley
And it lands In a puddle of rain
The puddle freezes over, the snowflakes growing it will, never fly again
Well, way above the alley there's a flat with a bedroom light on
In the corner of the room was a baby's crib surrounded by a newborn, dad and mom
I lay in the next room, listening to all of your cries,  
my daddy scooped me up in his big strong arms and rested me right by your side
From that moment, we were bonded by more than just blood,
there's some magic tonight in this endless night, you know it's my job to teach you good
I watched you growing faster than that snowflake ever did
We would mess around in the scrapyard ground and you would mimic all i did
I was the biggest giant you were David, you cut me down
Then you'd pull me up with your tiny palms from that ***** little scrapyard town
Out in the street, sometimes I'd catch you looking at me,
I was the hero of a.child who looked up to his brother, that brother was me
It wasn't all easy, you my brother were never all good
But whenever we'd fall out I'd lift the hair from your ear and whisper softly were more than just blood
Do you remember those dark nights when the world was asleep
Pull out a picnic blanket in the middle of our room and make this night, our own to keep
Talking, for hours you asked me how do I make my way in this world
I said I don't know yet but when I figure it out I promise I'll tell you
On your first day of school I sat and watched in the window on the alley top
I watch you walk on by with pride in your step you looked back to me but you never stopped
In my mind you were always one of a kind smiling each and every step of the way
I always hoped that those lessons I thought you, you could teach your own one day
There's a snowflake drifting down the street and it lands on the tip of my tongue
There's some radio playing from the alley flats and it's playing our fun song
There's two boys running down the street chasing around rolling in the mud
One of those boys pulls the other one down and I hear him whisper ... it's more than just blood
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