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Jay Mance Jul 2013
Now this was my time to turn the table
I flipped it....

Didn't really wanna touch this phase so
I skipped it..

If pride was a pool well you could say that
I dipped it..

Had my chance to sever the bond but instead
I gripped it..

Settling for friendship hurt my heart so from my chest
I ripped it..

Lack of emotion caused acceptance, so your title
I stripped it..
Jay Mance Jul 2013
Another installment of this session
brief period of breaking
we'll just call it the depression
I'm strong I can teach
but it was time I learned a lesson
that girl she's out of reach
but I can count that as a blessing.

I hit the gym
to try to get this weight down
I'm getting slim
3x's are becoming like night gowns
all this to take my mind off her
yeah it must be fate now
I wanted to negotiate
but the thought just caused my breakdown...
Jay Mance Jul 2013
That brings me to
the next step with my love and me
let's call it phase two
in this road to my recovery
"Man **** that *****"
but the hatred just befuddled me
confusion causing my depression
really needed you to cuddle me..
Jay Mance Jul 2013
I used to tell myself
this breakup
it didn't happen

Its all just a dream
I'll wake up
there you'll be napping

Fuss fight ****
that was us
and now I'm laughing

To cover up the anger
I once had
lets call it masking
Jay Mance Jul 2013
Locked out of Heaven
Cast out
By my own free will
Because I wanted to know
What earth was about.
Blue eyed beauty..
The brown eyed sub...
Meant nothing to me...
Couldnt cover up my love
Never thought I'd be here
Big hole but my heart beats still..
I was introduced to the fear
The weapon of evil
Sickness of the mind
Now I struggle to close my eyes...
Short nights..
Filled with lies..
I tell myself that I had time..
I'm done making this poem rhyme..
I'd wait an eternity..
For her to return to me..
The truth I can finally say it..
This is now her game...
But I can't even play it..
No reset..
No re-do..
I left to make changes...
to get better for you...
I guess the moral of this story
I will never learn...
Because we both moved on...
Past the point of no return..
Jay Mance Jun 2013
I'm Back baby!
Jay Mance yes I'm here!
Had to make some changes,
Getting my *** back in gear!

Lets start with my weight...
My goal is 270
I'm currently 328...
Got my *** in the GYM!
Fat pic on my wall,
Time to get rid of him.

On to my Girl
Don't have one!
I'm single
I'm not really looking but..
Its time to mingle..

Man I feel great
Motivated to move forward
On a path thats truly straight.

Expect some more from me
Critique
Cut me no slack
This is the me i love
Oh yes Baby I'm Back!
Exited to start writing again.. >.<
Jay Mance Apr 2013
"Gotta change my answering machine,
Now that im alone."
No wait,
why must I quote that song?

Lets look at the Positive
I'm free..
from the chains
they held me..
ever so close to you
what else could I do?

Bright sky
Sunny day.
yet only your constant tears
could wash that away.

use your pain like a crutch
have it hold you up.
take a breath, have a touch.
Cop a feel
like seriously
lets keep it real.

what purpose did I serve?
to be the reciever of your pain?
I had no coat..
so why the constant rain?

Its not a choice for me
so you've nothing but to gain.
Why must I be the bad guy?
Because I refused to go insane?..
I've held my feelings too long
But now its time I brought the rain.

I'd say we fuss
I'd say we fight..
but you never talked to me so
no... thats not right..
Don't think I didn't love you
If you do then you've lost sight..

I hope that by now
You've opened that umbrella
It came from our love
Sweet... Like Nutella..

Summer is almost here
and its been a long wet season
I hope you know me leaving you,
was truly for a good reason.
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