Sweat,
Sharp breaths
Not letting go yet,
You and I
Pressed against each other,
Nothing in between.
Strokes on your back,
Kisses on your neck,
Never ready for what pleasures come next
Finishing with no common sense
Then we're back at it again.
Worn out,
Eyelids heavy
Smoke a blunt
Let go already
No feelings
No worries
You and I
It happens every time
No metaphors
No flowers
No cards, no love,
Just ***
Just smoke
Just the inhales and the exhales
Just us

I am not a damsel in distress
I can save myself
If its ever needed

Some days I wish I could be blind
That way I couldn't see the flaws that we try so hard to hide
My friend once told me that she hated the color of her eyes
Just because they weren't the color gray or maybe green
Her exact words, "Brown eyes are so boring and mainstream"
My eyes are brown

Some days I wish I could be blind
That way I couldn't see the flaws that we try so hard to hide
My sister once said she wanted to work out whenever I did
Even though she is just a 9 year old kid
Her exact words "I wanna look like you and weigh 103"
I weigh somewhat close to 130

Some days I wish I could be blind
That way I couldn't see the flaws we try so hard to hide
My cousin said she wishes she had straight hair
She thought maybe her dad would be there
Her exact words "maybe if my hair was straight like daddy's he would love me"
My hair is also curly

Some days I wish I could be blind
That way I couldn't see the flaws we try so hard to hide
I know your flaws are different from mine
And we can forget them, from time to time
But when you're around me
I want you to see what I can see
I love the fact that your eyes aren't green
Brown is a beautiful eye color to me
I love that you weigh so much more than 102
Because if you weighed any less I wouldn't know what to hold on to
And even if you weighed 95 pounds maybe minus point 5
I would find you in my sheets, your heartbeat would be my guide
If your hair didn't curl I wouldn't know what to play with
And even if it was bone straight, I might learn how to braid it
I don't love your flaws, I'm not romanticizing your insecurities
But there are more important things to care about, so many beautiful things to see

I know you could be so happy
If you saw what I can see.

When I went to church camp, a pastor said,
"Be careful who you fall in love with, he may be someone else's husband"
For a while these words have been stuck in my head.
You might be someone else's husband, I may be another someone's wife
But I want to forget someone else, even if it's just for the night.
The problem is that when I hold you, we don't fit quite right,
I mean we used to, but not tonight,
I have to start to think,
You just might not,
Belong to me.
If you don't, thats okay
I will learn to live another day
But if tomorrow doesn't come,
Will I be alright?
Will I learn to love you, just for the night?
If my sun does not rise, but yours does after the setting of the moon,
Is it even possible to be the husband of two?
Buddha says I will be happy if I do not have desire
But **** that, and **** nirvana, only you can bring me higher.
Drake says we get high just to balance out our lows
If I'm willing to throw away my religion, is there anywhere else to go?
Because even with the drugs, even with the shame,
Even after I've lost all peace and succumbed to the pain
Will you remain?
Or will I call you someone else's husband?
Even though tonight you hold MY hand...