My motivations gone idle
My rhythm feels flat
I’m not suicidal
Because I chose to adapt
To see the silver lining
The light at the end
Of my tunnel of trouble
And it’s real, not pretend
I lift up and move on
I get out of my rut
I feel it, I know it
Deep down in my gut  
It’s my sense of survival
My yearning to thrive
That helps me keep going
And keeps me alive
It’s a sense of adventure
A curious query
To take a life that’s mundane
And not make it so dreary
I fill it with laughter
And what brings me joy
To be extroverted
Not bashful or coy
This is my burden
That I need to destroy
And become a man
Not just a boy

‪Elated and fading ‬
‪Into a dream ‬
‪Laid up with the flowers‬
‪Of red, pink, and green‬
‪Purples, and yellows‬
‪And bright tangerine‬
‪Away from disorder ‬
‪And chaotic scenes‬
‪Of drama and violence ‬
‪And all in between‬
‪Peaceful and pleasant ‬
‪Blissfully serene‬
‪Elated and faded‬
‪Into a dream‬

I remember moments of bliss
Which takes me back to the time
When our two lips kissed
And you became mine
We knew not what love was
But we loved our time shared
Like the games that we played
Hide and seek, truth or dare
Those are the times
Which none can compare
And in your eyes I stared
Like a breath of fresh air

A smile, a wink
Holding hands in the park
Made up of magic
That ignited a spark
Innocent and pure
We danced and we sang
Laughing out loud
Seemingly nothing to gain
Only lighthearted fun
Under trees in the sun
And when all was said and done
Our victories were won
And although they were small
We stood proud and stood tall
Because we had each other
In the fall, after all

When you’re gone I’ll visit thee
And replay all our memories
In the forefront of my mind
Your body’s gone, but your spirit thrives
Just as if you’re still alive
For now until the end of time
You are who I gave my love to
And now you lay in your tomb
Yet still, you are mine

There are no sins in love
Only raindrops from the heavens above
They’re like teardrops trickling down from my eyes
In the changing of blue to gray skies
And despite the bad weather
We’re two birds of a feather
With a love that just won’t be denied

Time, it is fleeting
Like dust in the wind
The old must be over
For the new to begin
A gentle reminder
Of another life lived
We rotate our memories
As the world spins
We reach for the stars
Some fall short, but aspire
To live out our dreams
And quench our desires
And we do so with vigor
Full of life, full of hope
Before time expires
At the end of our rope
The circle of life
In the grandest of scales
As some reach acceptance
Where others might fail

When I tell you I love you, it is not out of habit
Nothing could be further from truth
I say that I love you, that I’m thinking of you
And I’ll scream so from the top of the roof
You’re my desire, my evil empire
And you shine like the diamond of sin
I thirst for your heed, in my time of need
And your power to heal from within
I long for your touch, an inkling of trust
That allows me to orbit your space
I’d forego my spirit, completely coherent
And I wouldn’t dare call it a waste
You’re my moon and my stars, my wounds and my scars
And I’ve fallen for you head over heels
So that when I say that I love you, That I’m thinking of you
Know that I’ll take it to the court of appeals