How do I heal
From the words I can’t feel?
When I just can’t relate
With what I write or create?
When the moment is fleeting
When my hearts filled with hate?
Because the love that you gave me
I couldn’t reciprocate
The passion, the care
The protection from fears
So I sink to the bottom
Drowning in tears

How do I talk to an angel?
How do I touch feathered wings?
Fallen, from the graces of heaven
To live as mere mortal things

Why does the sun rise over the mountains?
Why does it set to the bottom of the sea?
Far off, in the distant horizon
Come dive into the answers with me

This life is so much more than yesterday
Tomorrow is a promise we can’t keep
Right now we’re inhaling forever
Truth, too strong for the meek

I keep asking myself
Keep wondering how…
How do I talk to an angel?
How do I touch feathered wings?
Fallen from the graces of heaven
To live as mere mortal things

The sun sets, the stars shine, the night falls
As wings are the grass roots of earth
There’s nightlife, and moonbeams, and raindrops
If I could only remember my worth
When the moment finally arises
Do I stand up tall on my feet?
Do I rise to meet the occasion?
Or wallow in my own self defeat ?

So I keep asking myself
I keep wondering how…
How do I walk with the angels?
How do I gain feathered wings?
Risen by the graces of heaven
To become royal queens and great kings

‪Beams of light slip through the clouds‬
‪Sparkling on the Earth ‬
‪Raising flowers from their sleep ‬
‪For new mornings birth ‬
‪Dew dissipates as warmth rolls in‬
‪A new day has commenced ‬
‪And old memories of yesterday ‬
‪Fade away at no expense ‬
‪I’m hypnotized by golden skies‬
‪It’s beauty knows no bounds‬
‪For what I see with my two eyes‬
‪Deserves to be announced‬

There’s little warmth from a setting sun
I’m broken in more ways than one
The seasons change, and time grows thin
Still, I remain in my own skin
I aim to see the break of dawn
I wish on stars, then ****, they’re gone
So I’m gonna wait till they return
And give away what should be earned
A heart of gold, a caring thought
But they say that love cannot be bought
So I wait within a moments time
But the punishment does not fit the crime
So I think and introspect
And console my heart and it’s neglect
I ponder all the time in which I spent
Investing in the tears I’ve wept
The constant lies and disrespect
All the promises I’ve made and kept
I am no doormat or fawner for you
And I will not accept my number 2
I must come first, second to none
So I may feel the warmth of the setting sun

They want the most
The lions share
The fear, despair
The eagles stare
They led the lamb
Into the lions care
Formed as clouds
High in the air
The blood runs cold
The meat is rare
For what comes next
We’re unprepared
Raining blood
Red and cold
The king is fair
The lamb is bold
And there they sit
Like peas in pods
And the lamb still lives
Despite the odds

I sleep with one eye open
Still I get no rest
Regarding my flaws
To which I detest
I see myself from the outside
As well as within
The spiral, the downfall
Within my own skin
I border intellectual
Yet, I’m dumb as a rock
I fly my own journey
Far away from the flock
Yet, I clip my own feathers
I disable my will
If I were a fish, I would drown
Despite having gills
I envision there’s heaven
I contemplate hell
I flipped in a penny
At the old wishing well
But the penny had value
Where my wishes had none
I shy away from the moonlight
Just to stare at the sun
It’s good versus evil
It’s the battle within
In my chest there is heartache
So I counter with sin
I use words as my weapon
I throw daggers, throw darts
I aim at the bullseye
And I finish what starts
I’m persistent and ******
I dig deep, go too far
I threw out my filter
And I counted the stars
I counted 1 million
Which seems like a lot
But it’s only a fraction
Of the gone and forgot
Just a blip on the radar
In the existence of time
Yet, I feel like a legend
Inside my own mind

Hurdles confront me
I’m standing in place
Bound by the outcome
I inevitably face
Resistance is futile
How much time can one waste?
In an existence of quandary
Beyond time and space
That’s where my mind wanders
With my head in the clouds
Aloof and in danger
Still, I stand proud
Resilient or stupid?
It’s undecided, unclear
But it helps when confronted
With undeniable fear
So, I continue, my foot on the gas
My hands on the wheel
Till I derail and crash
And come to terms with what’s real
And hope it won’t last
Driven by madness
Driven to madness
I’m condemned to my fate
Exposed to the differences
Unto which we all can relate.

I know I’m a bit of a mess, I confess
But allow me to address you all
I’ve been put here on this planet
I’m manic; volcanic
To create art, and just have a ball
I write lyrics like a poet
Because I am one, and you know it
I’m stepping up, answering the call
I’m on the scene and ample
If you can’t see it, light a candle
This is just a little sample of the rise before the fall
I’m humble and I’m gracious
My mindset is audacious
My lyrics are contagious
And there is no hesitation when I stall
I chase it with a passion
It is my call to action
I gratify with satisfaction after all
I’m dishing out cold facts
Just to see how you’ll react
But as I’ve grown, I like to think that I’ve evolved