‪It’s what I see and believe‬
‪Like lily pads, and lotus leaves‬
‪The wind whispers in a steady breeze‬
‪So I follow and dare not take the lead ‬
‪The wind, it pushes at my back‬
‪It leaves breadcrumbs down, for me to track‬
‪It fills the void for what I lack‬
‪And makes sure my mind remains intact‬

I’m broken, need fixing
But my body’s resisting
I’m at the threshold of losing my mind
The pain’s unrelenting
Constantly testing
My will to continue to strive
To get up and move on
Yet I still remain calm
Because after all, I am still alive
So I struggle and manage
Despite all the damage
Because it’s still no excuse not to try 

The water, it crashes
In waves, not in drops
From high up above
Unto jagged rocks 🪨
It leaps off the cliff
And continues to fall
Endlessly pounding
But, answering all nature’s calls
The force sounds like triumph
In granger; supreme
A powerful spectacle
But real, not in dream

The pages, they turn
Each chapter, each verse
A description, in letters
Invested, immersed
Will the plot thicken?
Will the story unfold?
Will the ending be happy?
Or bitter, and cold?
Will there be a sequel?
Are the answers revealed?
A book for the ages
When opened, unsealed

Running free in high spirits
Their manes flow in the breeze
Together in herds
On the vast open greens
The mares fall in place
As the stallions lead the way
Through fjords and through valleys
They prance and they play
At one with the landscape
Cohesive, untamed
Loose and unbothered
By rigid constraints

I’m in a battle with my own body
With a pain I cannot see
It covers me from head to toe
I’m in silent agony
It’s in my joints and muscles
And I can’t seem to find relief
I think it’s fibromyalgia
But I don’t have a degree
It’s just what I’ve learned through research
It hurts so much I cannot sleep
I’m ultra tender to the touch
I can find no sense of peace
I’ve been begging God for answers
Although I have no real belief
And I fear my prayers will fall on deaf ears
As I kneel on bended knees
I’m determined not to give up
And feel my health’s within my reach
But it’s the unknown that I’m scared of
As each day plays on repeat

There’s become something evident
That’s to my own detriment
I feel like it’s just a matter of time
Before I meet my maker
It’s no maker or breaker
The punishment just fits the crime
In a world with corruption
Lies and disruption
We failed in a lasting design
Evil roams free
Despite faith or belief
Which makes it not such a difficult bind
On one hand I leave earth
Of which I’ve hated since birth
Because my situation
Felt beyond my control
But what could I do?
I was young, with no clue
And I never had a sense of self-worth
Now that I’m older
I’ve got pain in my shoulder
And I haven’t accomplished a thing
I’ve fought and I’ve clawed
Excalibur sword
But I’m sick
And I’m too tired to swing
I know a likes just a tap
Not to sound like a sap
Or make you feel like you’re being kept on a string
But believe it or not
Just to sweeten the ***
I’m raffling off my old set of wings