A blank stare
In one ear and out the other
I hear you but I’m not listening
Have way too much on my mind
Here but not here
Pour me another glass of wine
Traditional conversations
Answering questions with questions
Verbally confused
I’m the painter
You’re my muse
Discovering the beauty in your eyes
How have I never seen this before
Your words become clear
Hovering around my ears
Starting to sink in now
I hear you
Can’t live without you
Hush
I hear you
I’m all ears
No need for your tears
I’m listening now
All my problems fade away
Hold you in my arms
Everything will be alright
Squeeze you with all my might
Never letting go
Hush
I hear you

4:07 in the a.m.
Got to escape
The rain
Living with a world of pain

Questioning whether I’ve gone insane
Put a pistol to my brain
Cocked the trigger
Such a useless game

4:07 in the a.m.
Got to escape the pain

Ringing bells inside my head
Alarm set to go
Two more hours
Before the show

Maybe that’s just the way it goes
Born, live, die
A vicious cycle
Always the question “why”

Live, love life
Live free of all the strife
Drama and an apple core
Can barely handle anymore

The beat, music soothes the beast
Running through my veins
No question now, I’ve gone insane

Heartbeats, beating drum
Trying hard to overcome
Deception in my eyes
Heartbeats and a beating drum

Heartbeats and a beating drum

To the only world I barely know
A living, breathing, tortured soul
No direction where to go
Losing streak, I’m on a roll

Rolling snake eyes
Room to grow
Collectively cultivated
Starting to take its toll

Born to earth, in the know
Said goodbye before hello

Hurt so bad, needed first aid
You must think I’ve got it made
Disappointed in every way
Encrypted, a verbal spate

Descending down the mountain
Washed up on the shore
Wrapped up in the seaweed
It’s an all out war

Turned the handle, opened the door
Not exactly sure what for
Have enough, wanting more
So much out there to explore

I’ve reached for peaks
I’ve hit the floor
The middle ground
Is an evanescent *****

I’m not trying to get back to what I was before
Hidden in the room, just beyond my door.
I contemplate whether to enter, but I’m really not too sure.
It’s really way too tempting, too hard to ignore.
I’m thinking and I’m thinking, whether or not to explore.
I just can’t get enough, I’m wanting more and more.
The innocence, something that’s so pure.
No worries of adulthood, knowing what’s in store.
Will I find my riches, will I end up poor?
I take my keys out of my pocket, I know what to use them for.
I twist open the lock,
I succumb to the lure.
I’m shocked by what I see,
Seduced by the allure.
What to do with all this wealth, maybe find a cure?
Donate every cent, the abundance and galore.

Wide awake at night
As I dread the morning light
The heat in waves
And beaming bright

Hot sun and the morning dew
I lay to rest as I seldom do
Late at night and morning too

Dreams are fleeting
Whether real, whether fake
So much more than I can take

Sleep is just a passing faze
Seems I’ve been awake for days
Lying in bed, staring at the ceiling
Wheeling, dealing
Fighting off this feeling

Rolling over, tossing, turning
Sun so hot it’s burning
Heated, sweating
Blood is churning

Goals and dreams
I do not have the means
Tackling all obstacles
If only to appease

Unsatisfied with the life I lead
Too ******* to leave
Nothing in life is guaranteed
Standing up for what I believe
As I live and breath
As I live and breath

You don’t know what it’s like  in my shoes
Instead of love songs, I sing the blues
From heart ache to heart burn
I watch and I learn

Searching the globe
Until my heart implodes
Caving into my chest
No more and no less

Alone all my life
Through trouble and strife
I bow my head
Dejected, I fled

I ran and I ran
All over this land
I ran for cover
Over and over

Lost in a spiral
I’m stuck in denial
My cup runneth over
Hoping to discover

The meaning of life
But the sun is too bright
The moon and the stars
I’m stuck behind bars

Imprisoned since birth
Scouring the earth
For love understood
And for the greater good