If
I
Look
Like
I’m
Not
Worried
It’s because I’m not

I’ve learned to
Chase no one.
Chase nothing.
Force no one.
Force nothing.

Truth remains
You’ll rarely have to run after who/what’s meant for you.

You can plan a suicide
down to the seconds
I have
But in the end
I'll probably end up
Stabbing myself with a kitchen knife
and calling it a day,
a life

Chain Smoking
Heavily and Deeply
Until You Dissociate
And Forget Why
You Were Stressed
In The First Place

Why would i choose to stand
to fight
when im sure that the weight
that will not stop tugging at my sleeve
the weight of existing
would feel so much better
if i let it drag me to the ground
and pull me beneath the earth
let me be heavy
let me give up
let me end