Your Soul met my Soul and my Soul knew yours
Since then, years and years walking through lighted doors
Doors of places we both been before
Being Lovers , Being friends, down to our cores
Your core I have loved and played on and
played with, held and swayed with,
and wanted more and more
Until we parted to leave to soar and blend
Only to start over again and again and again....
Hardest part of leaving you is feeling your end
and you cant stay,
but then the beginning comes back  around our way
Deepest parts of my Soul knows light without mine  yours may decay
As I walk the walk to Heaven and look towards the sky
Asking myself how I ever left you,  I ask why? Oh Spirit Why?
Seeing your hand, reaching out only longing for mine, clutching, pulling me
up like a deeply rooted vine
A vine that grows within our Souls up through our
spiritual spine,
The golden thread breaths you back into mine,
To once again weave us, embrace us, to be sewn so entwined.
This must be what past lives means,
Never ending endings and rebirths for our love
Carries our Souls by white fluffy Doves.
Seems we are all waiting for the end to begin
and the beginning to end
Now I know there are loves that you meet again
later in your journey and it may seem almost unreal and blurry
But your are here for a reason I feel it in my Soul's heart
Ill either see you again in the middle or End or maybe at Start
But either way I know that in all the lives that I live,
it will always be my heart and soul to you that I give

It seems we all dream the dream....
of a time we all can come together....forever.  Those days of being free were great for you. For me.  For everybody!!!  
The days of fun in the sun and driving and laughing and coming undone.
Waking to the next relentless day always thinking we would be okay.
Regardless.  
Never no doubt, never so sadness.  
Hardly ever no grief or maddness.
We lived to laugh we lived to love.   We lived to love and give.  
STOP
and think about the fun for a while,
Here it comes.   Wait for it......
what comes next is the Smile.

Where are you?
Why did you leave me?
You know now I'm blue
with pain in my heart
pain that feels we're apart
Pain in my head, my body, my mind
Can't you feel to send me a sign.  
I miss our love only me and you knew,
I miss the things you said and would do.
The sparkle of your eyes , deep look you
would dart
It clung to my Soul and my heart, YES! my heart
I miss you and I know you miss me
But you made this move, do you not agree?
I would of been against it,
I would of fought a fight,
I would of held on to you more tighter than tight.
If I knew this would happen and I somehow lose
you,
Cause the shock is real,  I did not have a clue.
I would of held you tighter, smiled till my lips would shake,
I would of made life more a party, like everyday ice cream
and cake.
I would of shined more and listened more and went out of my way
To make you see differently and,  JUST STAY! STAY! STAY!!
I hope that you see my writings and how much it makes my heart
hiccup and hiss.
Or maybe just  holding off because its hard for you too
Maybe it was even harder for you and that's why there was no follow thru.
All I know is that you are gone and see only memories in my mind or from a photograph,
But I'm telling you my darling, I would give millions just to hear you laugh!
Millions to see you one more time in my journey until it is my end,
Be still my heart, and YES my darling, we definitely will meet again!.

written with love
by Janna Lee

Peace and Love
Janna ....of course...xoxoxoox loolol

Here is a poem for you I just wrote

Forever Soul Friends

Funny how time goes by so fast
Memories of-old friends go past
Songs that remind me of you digging me
Songs reminding of of the way we used to be
Laughing and loving.  Loving so free.
Backing you against that lone oak tree
Me  knowing you. You knowing me,
So sweet you look as I stroke your Soul slowly.
It seems like life times your Soul has known me
I wish I could heal you with the wings we have worn
From years and years of our lives before
You and me spent life times opening up doors
For your Soul to walk in and meet mine again and again
I love you now and through many lifetimes ......I loved you then

The stairway you all climbed this year is definitely a great
walk it appears,
Hearing that you died today brings me to tears
hearing if you were still suffering brings out my fears.
Is he alone and is someone making him laugh
Was he able to get up and take his own bath
Did he sit by hisself and think his own morbid thoughts
Should I have gone out and just picked him up.
I feel Im always lagging behind to late
I dont want anyone to feel like they are smoothering
and want to escape.
I know that my loved ones are all gone and for a while
I wish to God there was a phone direct to just dail
I know today is your first day in Heaven
I know that you were on my mind when I gave my rent to Kevin
I wondered if you were on the stairs still making your walk
I know you might of lingered not going by a clock
I wondered in some strange way you came in my dream as Pat
knowing he was familiar and if it was you Id have an attack
Probably so because I was so sad on friday night
When I knew deep in my soul your were ready for flight.
Your voice seemed so weak, and you even said it to me
I said yeah def not the voice from before we agreed.
I know that you arent suffering....that is what we all say
I know I know I will see you on another fine day.
well fine for me going to a place of love and peace
But not for our loved ones and me right now Oh PLease
Come back for just a little while so I can laugh with you and see
you smile.   Make me giggle like you used to do, and I do the same to you.
I wanted to just hug you one more time but I guess it was your time to heal and shine
I know you do fine and be the head of something over there
Cause I know Bob and I know his voice will blare!  
Blare out the feeling Good once again
Feeling like the child that was made into your Man!
I love you, I send peace, Give me a sign once in a while
and maybe give me a call if there is a phone you can dail
or just let me look up in the sky and be proud
of that heart you might send me dressed up like a cloud.

My soul tells me your ghost is around me in this haunted mind of mine,
Wishin you would touch me, hold me, push me even
for a sign.
A brush of your cheek against mine or your fingers stroking my
hair...Don't mind I really don't...dont leave one hair spared.
Your kisses on my lips linger and I smell them,
I have memorized 'em .......Even kept some.
Your stare gazes right through me when I look at your photograph
I hear the erie far off laughter when I remember how much we laughed.
Your brown arms I sometimes think of when you spooned me wrapped against me tight...laying on my side always.....waiting for it to happen again...I know it might.
Feeling your breath against my neck as we watched Moulin Rouge
So relaxed...I fell asleep and felt like our bodies fused.
You woke me up so gently not wanting me to miss the love scenes
but then I wake up from this ghostly almost haunting dream.
Ghost around me ...Silent Ghost....Ghost so far away
Please come back to me and appear to me today.  
I know I work the Secret and I know I ask and do it right.
I know I have dreams about you in escrow and I believe with
all my might.  
Ghost are spirits that some say don't believe ...I know this is real, and You, I will receive.
The Ghost of you is fading around the edges,
I close my eyes and write my words, tears soaking my dread
Its there I found the heat of my tears and know its
real and not just ghosts in my head.
Not just the few pics I downloaded on my phone
so I can stare at you and not feel so alone
I have the picture of the anime  we drew one
night together...and I did have that sign,  when down fell one  feather.....
They are supposed to be from Angels, allowing me to see,
Feels like they are more from you....The  Ghost Around Me...

Him is the one that I awaken
beside
To see him lost in a dream
Softly reach slowly inside
seeing what really exists
am I permanent or to
him a myth
A ****** feeling
rolled out of bed the next morning
So easy for one to walk away
the next day
You will leave me to go to your
tractor to play
I will be alright
still tasting him on my lips
Still feel my ******* played
by his finger tips
Portraying his love in ways
I love to play
Right now at this moment
its that good should I say
As the sun comes up with morning light
I know that he will soon be in full flight
So many things that he needs to finish
But doesn't he know that someday I will
vanish.  
Then Ill roll over to a memory
of play
Memories stacked up and lock
them away
Another I'm sure Ill wake up to,
another spot taken
So Ill just hope that this one loves bacon