Jamie Lee

Jamie Lee Aug 2013

I lye in the deep dark shadows, of the hidden back alleys,
Scarred by the silence, of the cold darkness.
No bright lights along the perilous path, to guide you safely,
Past familiar places, you thought were harmless.

Late hours of the cold night, I sit and wait,
For my weary prey, to fall softly into my hands.
Comfort you shall not find, nor ease,
But simply what has been planned.

Unspoken words, find their means,
So many pleasures forbidden, like crimes.
Inhumanly acts committed, upon souls,
Souls I will soon claim to be mine.

Deceptive images, portrayed amongst innocent minds,
Muffled screams, corrupt the feeling of serenity.
As I creep into your thoughts, spreading my blackness,
You remain still, with the feeling of insecurity.

Jamie Lee Aug 2013

In Need of a Friend

I need you now more than I ever could have,
because I have this feeling that I cant describe.
Although you express to me your infinite love,
I can't seem to escape this feeling of suicide.

I don't want to let you go, I need you to hold me,
I need your reassurance in this dark place.
I want you to stroke my hair, and put me at ease,
I want to forever feel your warmth and grace.

It's happened once before and you were there,
you stayed by my side and we sought it through.
Not once did you frown when you never understood,
instead you held me tighter and there sat us two.

If there was ever a time when I truly needed you,
that time has come, like it did then.
So please don't abandon me cause I don't understand,
the only thing I know is that I need a friend.

Jamie Lee Aug 2013

Pushed to the Edge

When I had nothing,
you made me feel guilty.
You were suppose to be there,
and love me unconditionally.

I needed you most,
in my time of despair.
Yet that was the time,
I felt you didn't care.

I stood before you,
and all the rest.
As I took the blade,
and slit my wrist.

You said nothing,
didn't even move.
Just sat there staring,
while eating your food.

Then you asked me,
"do you think your cool?"
While you sat there,
thinking I was a fool.

My reply was "no,
I did it for your attention."
But that didn't matter,
you still wouldn't listen.

You broke my heart,
and did it so blunt.
That's part of the reason,
I almost jumped.

On my way to the bridge,
I swore it was the only way.
Tears fell uncontrollably,
knowing you wouldn't forget this day.

I waited for the perfect moment,
then I climbed over the gate.
I knew I had to do it quickly,
I was so sure this was my fate.

Even though I was scared,
looking down at the 401,
There wasn't anything,
anyone could have done.

A crowd stood behind me,
they begged me in fright,
The only reason I froze,
is because I'm afraid of heights.

The police soon came,
yelled to come back over.
As I went to step down,
they pulled me back over.

Jamie Lee Aug 2013

It's All Over

The blade slices in deep,
the pain is strong.
The blood taste so good,
there's nothing wrong.
I'll leave it all behind,
without a single thought.
It'll all be over,
with a single shot

No one believed me,
or listened to what I had to say.
What's about to happen,
was the only way.
My heart and soul are hurting,
I don't want to cry.
All my worries are gone,
But so am I..

Jamie Lee Aug 2013

Demons

Descriptive words could not say enough,
Informing you without any expectations,
A simple need to express the damage,
Of not meeting your qualifications.

You're ignorance; both gift and curse,
False belief from your deception,
Subsequent pain leading to anger,
Infiltrated like an infection.

Valuable lessons learned from you --
Benefit of the doubt should not be given,
Further regret seeped into life,
Now that my demons have arisen.

Plunging into bitter sweet weakness,
A temptation I could not resist,
Pathetic attempt at leaving flesh,
As the blade split open the wrist.

Consumed at my loneliest moment,
Tired of giving without receiving,
Defeated by my persistent demons,
Manipulated by thoughts of relieving.

Perception changes with reality,
Enlightened by harsh, clear thoughts,
A choice to no longer be controlled,
Thus, the day that I fought.

Strong desires to be able to forget,
Lips softly speaking lies after lies,
Though admittance was not achievable,
The truth came from your eyes.

Care was not something of existence,
Simply sheets and pillows,
Know that in the end it will be you,
as sad as the leaves of a weeping willow.

Jamie Lee Aug 2013

Acts of Abandonment (Rictameter)

Construed,
by perception,
into acts of pure lust,
powered by emotions of pain,
mingled with a lonely heart now aching,
exceeding bare desperation,
all starting with deceit,
as her mind is,
construed.

Jamie Lee Aug 2013

Your Kiss of Death

Soft whispers of air, pass through his lips,
Standing still, her vision is full of only this.
Each time that his mouth moves, to form a word,
She thinks to herself, this is surely absurd.

Her heart begins beating, hard and rapidly,
Yet she endures this suffering, quite happily.
Aware of every muscle, as her knee's weaken,
She is completely ignorant, of any beacon.

While captured in the depths, of his green eyes,
He gently pulls her in, taking her by surprise.
The warmth and strength, from his pale hand,
Causes further curiosity, of this perfect man.

His hand moves slowly, up the nape of her neck,
Sweet lips to her cheek, leaving only a peck.
Inside she cries, yearning for suppression,
Wild hunger, eats at her like depression.

As he stands before her, tall and strong,
She remains oblivious, to all that is wrong.
Her heart took a step, then fully leaped,
Into a love, which black poison has seeped.

This never-ending moment, has finally passed,
She cracks, then shatters; as fragile as glass.
Her anger swells, as she knows better than this,
Her fate was sealed, with a single tempting kiss.