I lay myself beside you
In hopes to feel complete
I want to feel whole again
So I use you
But of course it did not work
My emptiness expanded
And my hole grew deeper
You could not fulfill my need
You didn't want to
You used me as I used you
And we're both lost
We're searching for something
That no one can give
I just wish I could find it
- In you.

Push me
Guide me
Like me
Know me

Want me
Need me
Tell me
Show me

Trust me
Hold me
Hide me
Feel me

Bind me
Find me
Crave me
Have me

Believe me
Protect me
Surround me
Follow me

Control me
Respect me
Fight me
Love me...

A swirling field of chaos
Is haunting all my dreams
Relentless in it's search for power
Stalking up behind me
And pouncing at my fears
I'm taken by it's appeal
Too late to know I'm captured
When I'm already tumbling down
The only choice left is patience
See where the path leads me
Will the chaos ever cease?
I'm beginning to doubt my abilities
To fix what has been destroyed
To save what can't be fixed
My preparations are futile
For I cannot rely on a plan
When chaos is reigning high
I have no choice but to walk through
Slowing and deliberately, I face my fears
I face the field of chaos

My sanity decreases with each passing day
My ability to operate is getting hard to say
The difficulty is growing with no end in sight
The demons are multiplying without a sliver of light
There's no way I can continue this charade
When I have only myself everything begins to fade
The terror of my situation rises as the tide
The blankness of my mind is scary deep inside
Without a way to receive some help
There is nothing to save me from all I have felt
I'm hiding myself from this surrendered world
My intuitions are contrasting to all I've been told
Should I believe in myself or the things said to me
Or continue alone - I strive to be free.

She won't cry
He's not allowed to see
He's not allowed to know the pain she feels
She'll hold her head high
And hide her tears
He can't find out
That he's everything...
Every time he breathes
speaks...
moves...
She falls in love again
And remembers
That it can never be real
It can never be...
So she hides her pain
The truth...
And lies to herself
"It's not so bad"
"We can be friends"
"I don't need him"
Lies...
Just to keep from showing him
The truth in her heart

Silence -
presses against her heart
Slowly -
It begins to fall apart

Tears -
Fall gently down her cheek
Softly -
She give in to defeat

Painfully -
She rips her gaze away
Realizing -
There is nothing left to say

Reaching -
For what would never last
Falling -
Deeper into the past

Lost -
In a world not her own
Praying -
For a way to let go.