A little letting go helps now and again
To silence the demons clawing at your skull
Trying so desperately to maifest through you
And convincing you always they are you
Just ******* them in their fictional guts
Or scissor them into asphyxiation
Just never! Ever! Let them become real!
Cool?

I was told to bring light where there is darkness
But what about when all i have is black
I was told to bring peace where there is turmoil
But what about when I’m fighting a civil war within
Or when i want to nose dive off my roof onto the cement and paint the streets red with my head all off something you said
Wish I didn’t burn my nerve endings years ago then maybe I’d give an F or an S about you today but all i can do is love you till you implode inside me lighting up the sky as i ascend into time wherever we go
If you hadn’t left me with these scars in mybrain, neck and lungs then i could forget you in theory but alas time moves on and im left here with the drift into time as me

HEY YALL
This time I’m not gonna ryhem or spell correctly or dang near anything auto correct wont touch
But i love you with a never ending passionate wet sloppy kiss dont ever forget to pet your dog and feed your fish
Cats are cool too but they be spooky and sheeeet like half here half spirit world ya know?
What do i mean cause **** if i know?
I spend my time wishing for better times and making my existence miserable
Till i woke up in my casket bleeding **** out my eyes burned rotten from the son so long farewell aufweidersehen goodbye
When i die again let me slomeber

Put your gender in a blender
***** **** and ******
Testakills interwoven thrills will douse the desire
Just ask the child who slits her wrists to douse the morphine drip
To deal with her bruises both on her body & in her brain days after the finger stains start to fade.
Or four weeks later when dust became vapor and life force thrusts into her placenta
Memories of being bent over and forced into the midsize Porsche
Pleaded the fifth after a swift smack to the back of her dome piece to demand silence
No ******, pre-leak, pro-life, pro-knife pro giving it up to GOD if tonight’s the night. Every wake up a tear shed as each day passes puffing on this hashish to make it through the day up until her face went blue from holding her breath
Death was her only escape until the thought breaks through that its not up to me or you or any fool passing through to determine
The day finally came when your brother cut off his foreskkin before breaking his skull wide open to watch his brains melt in the scorching sun.

i've been broken everytime i open that door
it knocks all day long pounding into my head
i know it isnt her on the otherside but i open it
"you ******* **** you arent worth anything"
he's lying to me but the words are there
i put them there myself
why couldnt it be her, just once, to save me
is it because she too needs to be saved
i feel her close to me but her energy's fading
i wretch in my body, spirit prying to break free
i swear im going to lock that door shut, this time
i have to be the one who does it
i have to save her
maybe its me knocking and she is finally on the otherside
who opens the door?

let it burn you to your core
fill your glasses to the brim
celebrate this life you have
knowledge is not giving in
everyone got something to hide
is your problem worse then that
are you suffering from me
or is it you that you despise
curse me **** me hate me
doesn't matter in the slightest
to only live for your desire
power is a game of liars
and i am the worst of all
because i truly believe
but my faith follows no one
just the world that i live in
because i am not really here
just a fire burning softly in the wind
which can not be put out
cause i was never alive

i swear nothing matters
******* **** means nothing
we mean nothing know what i meen?
so focused on imperfection we never see the golden air waves
so secluded to our own misery that it blows right past us
but its there everything is
waiting for you to look up and notice
all the love in the world swirls around you this very second
but are you too sharp to notice