They say attention sells
Are you paying?
Good buy
Watching as the sales
Catch wind
In the distance
The omnipotent lurks
It hurts from afar
The closer it gets
Sedated the pain drifts
Internet viral infection
Your subjective objections
Nets more views
They say attention sells
Are you paying?
Opinions gumbo
A snowball effect
What's erected briefly
Affects the aura
Dispersed in seconds
Long lasting knots
Tied in infinite temporaries
Life of
is short like Februaries
Long cold and quick
They say attention sails
Are you paying?
To stay afloat
Drowning in free money
Purchased for nothing
Flailing
sinking from the
Whole within
Anchored
In the middle
Of an ocean of sand
With water on top
They say attention sells
Did you pay yet?

Late mornings or early nights
Internal struggles an eternal fight gripe when ever cradling life
A gift endowed upon is heavy
Handed stranded with opinions
The pen becomes a machete
Instead of jotting
turns paper into confetti
spilling my blood
on looken like spaghetti
expedient measures
the recipe warrants a recipient
of a John beard
ingredients inter-whine
you could smell it in the air
master sommelier  
An acquired taste took years
1 meal serves plenty
Being great takes time
It stole many!!!
it stole minds!!!
So many!!!
I gave it my all I'm so empty
Tapped reserves
what my soul lent me
If I was trying to impress you
Would you then befriend me?
If you was impressed?
Doubt it
So I Feel alone when its crowded
When I'm alone I'm crowded
With these thoughts surrounding
Hounded whicha what way
There's a certain price
you pay
for talent

Anxiously sitting about
waiting on the future
To come around
could it be late
did it past
out
come on NOW!!!
how can the future be tardy?
patient hardly
doctored up
Benefit of doubts
Stuck in traffic probably
Did the future call out?
Needed a day off
Accrued time
A prisoner of the mind
Or moment?
Future habitually postponing
Although it's in my
Hands can't condone it
Presence of mine
Is a present
The futures presence
If ever felt in essence
No matter how it's presented
Its unobtainable
What it represents is
An un-huggable angel
Depending on your angle
Whenever the future
gets here
I'll be thankful

A convolution of illusions
a mirror of houses

you can touch
But you can't look

home is where the heart felt
the window of opportunity
is not as it appears

theres no door for
opportunity to knock here

Examine the picture
the landscape rocks bare

backyard is cinder blocks
jungle of concrete
gated community
black metal fences

grass ain't greener
on the other side
it's just pretending

Artificial turf
intellectual property
constructed
on top of dirt

priceless
nothings worth

Building
a million stories
No won's heard
Wild cattle famished
Tragic loses perturbed

I gather
well rather disturbed

Collective incidents
Between the cracks
Inconspicuous
You had to observe

For the eminent
Collapse may seem
Absurd

A Foundation built
Upon a house of words
Could stand and withstand
As far as we've known

I am who I'm not
I was who I ain't
everything about me is fake
the multifaceted facade
I'm everything
you think I'm not
i'm life imitating art
since arts imitating life
I'm everything that I write
which is a hoax
a laughable out loud joke dilettante
unaccomplished a novice garbage nonsensical nonsense
Product of my surroundings
Victim to my environment
A sum of the world
so can't take it to heart
where do I start?
Oh life imitating art
Since arts imitating life
I'm everything that I write
Which is a hoax
Just as the world
broke

2:02 am displayed on the phone
ceased rain storm
three consecutive days
dripping in the downspout
like a metronome tick
in sync with drops
on the window pain
half of the window foggy
half of her daughters name
crackling of the base board heater causing it to dissipate

initiated by the
temperature decrease
animated shadows
on the Wall
Street light trees
rocking back and forth

R.E.M. sedatives engaged thunderous bangs previous nights held her awake
what a relief
Sudden crash of glass
A perimeter breach

Murderer?  Kid Napping? Thief?

Let's see
Wet sneaks squeak as the creeper sneaks
A perp with purpose
This Was no thief
Lurks toward stairs
from the living room
Old house stairs creak

Daughters guess it's mom
Who can't sleep
Good night morning mom
She screams
The murderer hastily
Moves down the hall briefly
Stops at the daughters door
To Then Proceed
up the hall

A murderous night
In hand the murderers
knife
A murderers stands right
Over her owning her life
The room flashing bright
Flashes again and again
Phone reads 6:37 am
Sun shinning in
I am never taking sleeping
Pills again

Malcontent characteristics recalcitrant inhibitions
unaware, unaware of conditions borderline severe heuristic clarified the ebb an flow  preventive
growth had to learn
on my own to listen
mr know it all
didn't know at all
the time it took
he didn't tell me
just handed a book
I handed it to the shelf
finally read it
evaluated myself
wealth of knowledge felt
like nothing, like nothing else so I sought to
challenge my thoughts
question my purpose
the rhythm of history
gave notes took notice
That change was focus
In continuous motion