I'm a ******, yes a striker, with a quick mind, but even faster actions. I live in a world where my actions, truly do speak louder than words after all, ever since I began his rhyme I'm been aiming at you. I was just wondering how much time it would take your simplistic mind to realize that Im really the one watching you and your every move. So, I'll take a break and let it sink in for a bit. Tic-toc-gun shots, oops there someone goes. A lost soul who now roams bodiless scraping across this earth. Being buried and put to rest, while in reality your flesh is being eaten and deteriorating, and now you're temple which was once your body is left to be another sack of bones screaming of untold stories left behind and 6 feet closer to the pit of our earths core. Now, do you still wonder why we humans do the things we do? Or are you still confused of who's really at hang who? Because if you think too hard, you won't be able to apply it. Which is why I believe I am better than you. You think now and act later, but now it's all too late. It's time to write the numbers to the blank line labeled dusk date.....

Test your might, and put your skills to the test make your knowledge the key to your success. Instead of making the idiocy act of your infantile mind be the pit of your failure. Looking at things from the inside out making it a tad bit paradoxical. Bringing yourself to the conclusion of not knowing right from wrong, but resolving your misunderstanding with thinking you're only human. Beginning the journey of the aspects of you believing you are of the lesser. The bottom feeders. Giving yourself the title of worthless. Not holding yourself to your full capabilities that you lack to focus on. So you see everything with a blur, going in painting the sky green and the grass blue. Living in a fantasy where you never grow up, there is a lack of evolution in order for a revolution to begin. Because that is where it all start. Now I'm not saying it's wrong of you to become nostalgic from time to time taking a trip back to where all you knew was **** near nothing. However, you've lived this luxurious life, where you only get one to use, so don't waste it on the countless times stuck in a dream not wanting to face reality. So once again, and make this a habit too, test your might and the knowledge you get to seemingly grow in order to know where and how to set your life on the ocean of life to just flow.

The last time I seen you,
You told me something
A smile began to form out of the creases of your lips
Wrinkles began to form in that forehead of yours
"I Love You," you said
Eyes, a bit drained, and at the sound of your voice, I knew. Yeah, I knew  
I begun to fight the tears flooding in the depths of my eyes.
My life flashes before me, all memories lying in the Alcatraz of my thoughts begin to replay
Daddy please, this can't be true
You grab my wrist and pull me in
But all I want to do now is flee from this greed that haunts in me

My knees fail me, and your arms where huge
Wrapped around me with warmth, the equator to my soul
The mind to my temple runs blank
Empty, slate, like an open journal waiting for pen to fill it's lines.
Hearing becomes impaired, and I just give up
My gut fills with bile and now I feel sick
Thoughts, again, flourish in my head, and nostalgia takes over.
Half of me is gone, and now life itself feels wrong
Where all I want to do is crawl into a cave of despair just to be numb to the world and watch time pass me by.

I took her for granted, and I regret all the fights that grew upon the disagreement that made its path from my tender thoughts I had given life.
My words became daggers to your heart, and I knew it hurt.
And I'm sorry

For her, my life I would most definitely give back
Although it is not mine to actually give away
I'd give her my life for her to stay on this earth.
Because, her worth meant more to me than the stars in he sky
Which makes me wonder, why?
Why her?
This motivation
This beauty in disguise
This fallen angel
My mom.

I can't remember these memories that multiply through the cycle of my mental. All I can remember are the ways you treated me as if we just floated across the waves of the oceans constant bumping against each shore line on a sunny wet beach. Where all you can do is lie on the bed of sand that stays beneath your feet as you rest there looking at the midnight stars wanting to simply reach for them. As if there were something really out there. Because, the stars that that you look at in this wide opened scenery of our sky all die just like the sparkly shine I once seen in your eyes. They are dead open flames reminding me of the  feelings that I once had for you. And To think, I would still do the minor things to put a smile on your face....mmmmm, that's a **** shame. You once shown me you were mine, at the time that we spent together. But I guess we were just a clock waiting for batteries to bring it to life. time well spent, but also time well wasted. Which is why I will never wish on another star on the belief it'll come true. Because, I don't want to find another dead *****, just like you.

Just like the flower, you are a lotus
You keep me coming back forever making me not wanting to leave. And At the taste of one bite, I already want more. You give me life, at the same time hold me captive. I adore your creation, as I'm deteriorating from within. You make me feel that 1 may be a lonesome number, yet I'm better by myself. Testing the waters with something new, instead of wasting my time being infested by you. You took my heart and hold inside of a jar collecting them leaving many men with open scars. Keeping me inside of this prison where I can't break these bars. Baby, this isn't love.

Love is when you continue to finish my sentences. Accepting my wrongs instead being my critic. Love is when I am able to feel our souls combining at ever kiss we commit. Sealing the deal of trust, instead of holding me inside this solitary confinement. Love is when I'm afraid of losing you, like a lost child away from his mother. Love is when I can feel the connection as I lay deep inside your blue ocean sea. Love is when your palm rest on my chest and you feel my heartbeat being in-sync with your own. We become one, a metronome. Beating at every tic to every toc. Where is my love?

I know she is out there waiting as she stares at the empty side of her California king bed. There lies an empty space for me ready to occupy, but I have to somehow break out of this lie. Break out of this jail that I once called home. Take these chains that bind me feet and pray to Jesus to forgive me for my lust. The emptiness I have committed myself to through lust instead of love  I'm just a little white dove on the edge of a branch waiting to take that first flight in the world. I don't sing, because this caged bird is afraid to spread his wings. Afraid of not being able to find my sleeping Beauty in her tower, waiting for me. All I need is some guidance, and a little bit of hope.


I'm ready to break free, Jesus has talked to me, answered my prayers. I got down on my knees and begged Him for forgiveness. Asking Him to break these chains. And That's exactly what he did, and the next thing to happen to me was incredible. I no longer bit from the lotus that held me inside the lies I called love. I left that broken home where that infested ***** took me for her own, her slave.

Now I lay across from my sleeping beauty of restless nights. Cuddled and snuggled in between her thighs it's passion. She is the fruit of my looms. Our souls reached out for each other and the love began. And as I know rest my head on top of her breast, I heard a pulse. Yes, a pulse. 2 beats  combined into one, I then knew Jesus' work was done.

Fill me with patience
Divide me in love
Pour out the care from within me.

Transmute my being
Display my thoughts
Engage in my brain and get to know me.

Hold my words against me
Fight my battles without action
Take the pride that subliminally seeps away from my smirk.

I'll stand my ground for what I believe
I speak out loud the stories to not be told
I subconsciously **** you.

My target is you
Ready
Aim, Fire

Crush my dreams
Step all over me
Gas me up.

Feed me knowledge of the lies
Extract the feelings that I hide
Swallow these bullets through the dome.

Games Over

Long roads of emptiness Nothing to fill the void
Darkness creeps up from behind without any introduction
Leaving you filled with trepidation as you sit there all alone
No one is there to give you comfort
So in time you just cast a stare and begin to think
You take a trip to the depths of your mind
Finding the words lost away never to be heard by any soul
They just sit there as if they are just taking up space
Space that can be used, but space that isn't used to amuse
However, to abuse you from the inside out
Taking just 2 steps backwards away from it all you fall
Deep into the despair, denial, and disbelief
The locked up words begin to attack and swallow you whole  
Kicking and screaming gets you nowhere
Too many words have been consumed in this space left untouched
there is no running away, and there's no turning back
Just as the words, you are held captive
Deprived from the known you are mentally stuck
Coma.
The words are now all you know
Paralyzed, leaving you  numb to the touch or the feeling of life.
The words that have been left unsaid continue to consume you
This is a fight you know you can't win or defend to stand your ground.
They were searching for the inner you, and that's exactly what they found.
And finally, the inner you reaches in to unfold, unravel, and reveal these words scrambled in the back of your head
Which now aren't the words unsaid.
These words that were once dead were finally given life.
Tears begin to run down your face,
Realizing all this time you've spent  bottled up has been a waste
All things have hit the fan, boiled over and have spilled out on its own command
And then its all over
The Finale
This is the escape these unspoken words had all planned.