I look to the stars each night,
Our memories i hold tight,
No one can replace the hole inside,
So much pain, sorrow, and anger i hide,
Why you where taken so young from me,
A fantastic mother, the best you could be,
Someday i know we will meet together,
hold you tight and be family again,

For too many years,
due to many family losses,
I've cried thousands of tears,
None greater than when i lost my mother,
now just fantastic memories remain,
so difficult to recover,
taken so young,
my own children now my only motivation,
the reason i carry on and stay sane,

No words truly describe my pain & sorrow i feel inside, Yes! I'm blessed with three fantastic & gorgeous children!  but yet I'm still saddened by thoughts they should have a better mother, these thoughts i shell forever hide. With each smile they give me,  a breath i shell take, because each smile & happiness holds my life, without them i breath no more. Lost is a word i feel best describes me.

DEPRESSION!
Depression is an illness brought on by a shattered past,
Basic skills, needs, & dreams fade away fast,
Immobilizing your will, confidence, thoughts & goals,
Slowly amercing you into deep holes,
Along come alcohol, poor communication & rage,
Both you & your family wishing they could turn to a new page,
Children caught up in the fight,
All needing to make things right,
Hope & tears burning dry,
And we all SCREAM why!
Life seems to fall apart,
Deep within everyone’s heart,
When & how will it end?
Can this ever mend?
Written by Jaki Burman 23/11/09