As the sky weeps upon my shoulder
I reminisce of a young girl searching for peace
Amongst the cry of a broken home
Consumed with sadness she cries
Imagining a place in time
When ache has passed
A place called home
Where cries of laughter bellow
In song

I never got it until now
Could never see because I was blind
Shut off the feelings I had inside
No perspective- only pride
I’m sorry for being dead inside
It helped me compartmentalize
Without any consequence of what I had done
Until I stared into the star filled night
And realized
I never got it until now
I didn’t wanna see that look in your eyes
As I laughed out loud
And you contemplate
With sorrow strung on your face
I looked straight at you
Without seeing you at all
Because I didn’t want to feel what I had caused
I never got it until now
That I am an emotionally manipulative witch
And by witch I mean *****

No matter what I may think
Everything will work out
It always does
I won't be alone
I won't fall apart
I won't be sad- not always
But I will be strong
And have faith
Because regardless of my doubts
And my worries
There will be a way
My Father in Heaven
has never forsaken me
God is the source of all my strength
Blessings abound no matter the size
I will not forget
No matter what I sometimes think
Everything will work out
It always does
It always has
I will have faith
I will trust
I am not alone

So sick of this thing called love
So annoyed with its facade of bliss n ****
Everyone needs to get over it.
It’s like being suspended in the air
Filled with hope and fear
As you wait, wait, wait
Wait to see if you’ll float off to heaven or fall flat on your face.
So sick of this thing called love
That burns like acid between your veins
Sizzling the blood, trapping rational senses into explosive emotion
And just when you think you can never get enough of it
It disappears into time and space
And we search, search, search
Search again for those powerful fictitious emotions
Again, waiting and waiting
Till love drops us on our heads
So sick of this thing called love
So annoyed with its facade of bliss n ****
Everyone just needs to get over it.

Did I ever love you?
You ask like you don’t know
That there was a time I would’ve done anything
to smell you
to taste your breath
and lay
There was a time
you made me want to be a better version of myself
I did all of it for you, for us, for we
Did I ever love you?
What kinda **** is that to say?
When I pulled down my walls for you to see
The puzzle pieces that make me
My laughs
My barfs
And farts
We loved each-other, held each-other, needed each-other
I got a chance to explore the vessel of you
Counted every freckle and mole- 42
Gazed into those bedroom eyes as I slipped through
Tickled you just to hear you laugh out loud
Kissed your thumb, my favorite finger
Of Course I loved you