She thinks of nobody but herself
But still her bedrooms filled with nails she falls
And always seems to land on her wrist
Gashes a centimeter wide she needs stitches she needs to call an ambulance
She'll bleed out! God ****** she'll bleed out!

But she's not ready to die yet so she stitches herself back up
Hoping she hasn't drained too much
Because she loves the sting the reason she lives is for the sting
And the DRUGS
PILLS: Oxy, Percocet, Vicodin, Demerol
She sniffs them she snorts them she even ******* chews them!
She'll do anything as long as she can float

She won't admit it but she loves life she loves the drugs
And pain and abuse that come with life
She loves the pain, oh *******, she loves the pain
So she stitches herself back up she doesn't want to die
Repeat repeat she does it again
Dripping on the kitchen tile but this time is different

This time she's forgotten about the drugs and the pain
She's focused on her wrist and her wrist and her wrist and her blade
Too deep, she's gone too deep again
But she doesn't care  she's not stitching herself back up
She's ready to die with not enough drugs and
Too much pain
She's ready to leave this world behind
Ready to leave the pills

Don't leave me don't leave me
I love you I love you
Grab the needle, please get the thread
Please just stitch yourself back up stitch yourself back up

I was bored and I wanted to see some blood, mom
Really, I wasn't trying to **** myself
I know it's a little too deep
I just wanted to see some blood

My best friends name is Mya
Shes a beautiful wonder; a saint in disguise
But she hates herself 
For everything
Eating, talking
Breathing 

She let's out forgiveness but breathes in resentment 
It gets changed somewhere inside
Afraid to stand in a crowd afraid of the looks
She thinks people give her

Tries to starve the ugly out
But girl, there wasn't any to start
Used to cut her wrist let flowers spill 
She quit that dangerous addiction years ago 
But it still haunts her mind/thinking should I? Should I? Should I?
Should I again give into the unforgiving blade? 
Shes so hungry but won't let herself eat
Traded in her pain got a different kind 

I love you I love you
I'll say it untill you love yourself

i never thought i'd be this person
addict; stealing, stealing, stealing
say it out loud, mom
your daughter is an addict
i'm not saying its your fault you couldn't have known
but you neglected your pills; you left them alone
and i couldn't resist the temptation
seen it on tv. heard it in songs. oxy
oxy.
three letters consumed me.
one taste; i was in love
god, the high
the high it was like
heaven heaven heaven

but soon, two wasn't enough
and thus came the first increased dose
three four five now six
snort them, baby. the burn!
obsessed with the burn
and my glazed eyes, god you could see the ocean

but the comedown was hell
even more so because i was used to heaven
it was hard for me to comedown
keep poppin' em so you're always up
always in the clouds
you wont understand that metaphor
unless you've been there;
unless you've seen yourself floating
breathing slowed
surrounded by white; high

You used to be like lithium
Curves in all the right places
A smile that had essence of sunshine and 
Hollowed stars
Your nicotine crusted lips enticed me and you were so addictive

But now your just addicted 

****** laced blood spills from your veins 
You **** it up with the syringe you're so addicted 
Your eyes are just hollowed holes
With sticky black on your finger tips you touch my face, smearing
I kiss you, honey, I love you, baby 
But you've chosen your affliction
Over me

Baby, you're so soft
The purity of your soul
Makes me fall in love

Smoke, on a cold winter day
Fills the air
Caresses her face
Cherry blossoms float in the distance
Snow drips silently onto her nose
And as it does, she realizes, she drifts in the breeze
For a moment, her pain is stalled
And all is still in the woods
The trees, her brain
No longer shake with distress
But calmly are ribboned with cold
To make her forget
Of the night he broke her
With just two hands and
A lust that could fill the town
He broke her
But today, she is whole
Twenty below, and she is whole