I am so furious, still so angry.
But nothing to direct it at.
Five years gone, I can’t believe it.
Five years I’ve known you won’t come back.

And I don’t believe in God, which makes me even madder.
Not another life where we’ll meet.
Five years ago I lost you.
Five years since you left me.

I can’t see you, can not hear you.
What if I lose more memories?
Five years without my father.
Five years you’re an absentee.

I’m so filled with rage, but for whom?
I want to punch and scream and yell!
Five years you haven’t been here!
Five years I feel unwell.

But sometimes, if I’m lucky,
In my dreams we are together.
Maybe five years more are needed.
In five years I’ll feel better.

You didnt even try,
You just left me without saying goodbye,
Accompanied me with so much lies,
And it’s suprising cause we had such good days.
I don’t know why I’d even fight to keep you by my side.
When you’d just leave me here to die, anyways.