I sleep at night
for a tomorrow
I could not dream
would become reality
within or without me

it is and so
I finally know
that all is right
and I am home

before you and I
we moved the earth
and turned the tides
for those who
spoke and breathed
both afflictions and lies
through crooked teeth
yet still they smiled
at what they’d done,
to heart left defiled

but, we were not tamed
we are still wild

from the same spool
the world spins these strands
into a mess of a canvas
yet symmetry stands
divided by oceans
separated by land
exists all I have wanted
all that was planned

there is no “however”,
there is only an “and”

and...

when I think of you
I feel a word deep inside
my flesh and bones
that until now
I could not describe
using any language
it could not be defined
but it is a place
in the rawest parts of us
where we don’t have to hide
this is where we are safe
and our love resides

and...

we searched so long
both low and high
through the threads that
tangle, twist, and tie
for the light that seemed
it could not shine
in the fabric of
our long lost lives

and so we come to find
with shaky hands
and weary eyes
that all along

mine was yours
and yours was mine

I set a blaze
To all the things
I tease and taste
Like twisted snakes
We coil around
Each breath we take
With the love we give
And the love we make
So you seize
And so I shake
Watch me bend
And make me break


It doesn’t count
If I don’t ache

What is it
That separates you and I
A line
A galactic divide
I study it
With covered eyes
Sometimes narrow
But mostly wide
It is filled with flaws
That you can’t hide

And I know
It is hard
To accept that
The demons you
Carry inside of you
All share your DNA
Your face, your name
Yes, hope is buried
By sorrow and shame

Are we so different?
We point all the blame
At our reflections
Every day

It is time to
Break the mirror
It’s okay
To walk away

I know
wherever I go
a storm brews
so like my morning coffee
I brew it
dark, dark, dark

I take pride
in this night vision
until daylight comes
and my eyes
swell with tears

for I know
there is
something wrong
in the truth

that my eyes
must adjust at all

She is all that is holy
A beaconing light
As gold as her hair
She is a force
To be reckoned with
More than
I could ever be
She is wonder
And innocent laughter
Beyond the years
She could even experience
She is the dancing flame
Too bright for this world
A compassionate touch
In a strange, numb existence
The core of the universe
The common denominator
The solution to all conflict
She is the sunrise and sunset
And every waking moment
Before me and
Behind my eyelids
Every decision I make
Holds a trace of her
Like a fingerprint
Left at a crime scene
Forever important
Forever placing her there, with me
She is the rabbit
You could never catch
The snowy owl
The mighty lion
The butterfly skipping between flowers
She is a rainfall of joy
And a tear drop of rage
And she is the moon
Oh yes -
She is the moon

I am panic
Frenzied particles
Moving and shaping
Everything I seem to be
Inside of a
Concrete cage of consciousness
Inside of a
Dazzling dot and dye marked
Enigmatic epidermis
Here I am

I am ice cold
Frost bitten to the core
A bullet train made of sleet
Running on cyanotic cylinders
And the gritty grating salt
Beneath your cold, wet shoes
All at once
I dissolve and destroy myself
Yet I just keep
Coming back
Here I am

I am as satisfying as
The long winded palindrome
On the tip of your tongue
The redundant rhyme  
You chanted as children
And the hymn you harmonized
With haunted heathens
Here I am

I am the all encompassing embrace
Of all that you are
****** up futile flaws and
Autonomous awe inspiring anomalies
I will hold it all together
In the way no other has
My seams of love
Stitched and sewn
With intentions as pure as gold
And nothing else
Nothing more
Here I am

I am the writhing writer
Frantically feverish with
Fingernails like forceps
I pry these words from
My brain like a
Sickening surgical procedure
On a *****, disheveled mattress
As if they were
Ingenuities oozing with infection
Here I am

I am the ritual rebirth
Wrongfully righteous reincarnation
I tip and turn like the tides
Lurching at the shore
Time and time again
In an endless cycle I am
Looking for
Nautical nirvana
Here I am

I am the exceptional exchange
Of a daunting and diligent dialect
Only few can understand
And to those fluent
In my twisted and tiring tongue
I say
Here I am