This is to anyone out there that's listening
From anyone who ever let you down and went missing
Lovers, parents, best friends, and siblings
Sometimes life conspires to make liars of good men

This is to anyone out there that's listening
From everyone that ever let you down and went missing
Lovers, parents, best friends, and siblings
Sometimes life conspires to make liars of good men

I'm sorry I wasn't who you thought I was
**** it-- I'm sorry I wasn't who I thought I was
I said no matter what, I'd always be there, but that wasn't honest
Because I'm not
And 'cause that ain't how life goes
Broken promise

Growing up, I always thought I was one of the good guys
I thought it was black and white like that
That I could nurture my good side
But I've caused hurt and I've stripped pride
Both on the surface and inside
I wasn't cursed with a dark side, I was just normal
Average, regular, nothing special, I'm telling you
Just being human makes you both God and the Devil's clear replica
I've had my emotions crushed and maybe crushed a few along the way
And at the time, I meant every single word I would say
Every word of love, and every word of hate
Every time I would adore, and every time I'd berate
But time passes, and sometimes those emotions fade
Making liars of both the threats and the promises made

But is a lie really a lie if you mean it at the time?
How can a lie be a lie if you mean it at the time?
A lie can't be a lie if you mean it at the time
How can a lie be a lie if you mean it?

This is to anyone out there that's listening
This is to
This is to anyone out there that's still breathing

I bought a heartbreak hotel
On my own, with no investors
Closed it down and opened the "*******, get over it" bed and breakfast
In loving memory of having loving memories
Of combustible emotions, and having real enemies

Typically poetically dramatic endings
Were once a trademark of mine
Patents pending
And the mighty height of emotions on parting ways
Was always grander than the connections of the early days

When we were fighting, there used to be thunder and lightning
Ferociously frightening, a clash of the titans
Emotions heightened, every single muscle tightened
An addiction to the thrill of the fight, the excitement

Love at first sight always seemed unconsidered
I'd rather love at first fight, and then onto double figures
An unconditional love? Well, that just means nothing
In love with the mere idea of loving something

Always just hunting for that near-life experience
In fear of missing something vital from your own existence
All your emotions subconsciously thought out and scripted
Less about how you're feeling
More about how you ******* depict it

But all that stops when one day you just decide to stop playing along
That point in time when the most amazing things in the world can just as easily seem
Pedestrian

You've lost both that loving and that loathing feeling
Turns out, hell does have a bottom
And heaven, a ceiling
Both love and hate become opaque in time's wake
A face that once summons rage now summons nothing
Whether it's emotions tethered, nerve endings severed
Or just the outlook you acquire when you're a little more weathered
Remaining conscious of this all, and in a way, feeling above it
Still feels like bad riddance to good *******

But is a lie really a lie if you mean it at the time?
How can a lie be a lie if you mean it?

You are like the wind, blown away, never here nor there.
Your always searching for something right, always searching
for the light. You sit in your tower way up high, always
trying to figure out how to live your life.

Your heart is as big as a mountain, yet no one
seems to understand you. Your feelings are like bubbles
ready to explode around you. To feel like nobody is
there is a feeling we both share. You my friend are the
star that keeps me going in this tragic thing we call life.

But until the day when we take our last breaths
ill always be here for you. And when that day
comes ill see you in the heavens, to live in peace
and love. Forever and ever, Forever and ever.

Love Always
**Jacob

I lay down in a field of snow looking up
as the snowflakes fall. It's beauty insnares me,
mesmerized. The snowflakes fall gently to the ground,
a light breeze dances across my cold face.
I am trapped.


Trapped in its beauty, trapped within the cold.
frozen in time I hide under a thick blanket of snow.
forever trapped to gaze upon its greatness.

You stand there in the distance hiding behind the
large Oak trees. The wind blows ever so softly in the midnight air.
Your dark brown eyes stare at me from afar . I am mesmerized
by his beauty. But He is gone now leaving me with nothing
but a faint memory.

I sit alone in a dark room
hoping for the light to find me.
A room with no walls
only thick blankets of fog.

like a blind man i see
no salvation to this madness.
Only fear, lust and anger.
Forever lost withing the pictures.

Alone in silence hidden
under the dark Angels wings.