All alone I smoke cigarettes on the roof
I was going to tell you all about the sun
How it disappeared into the night
The sun never rose in your eyes again

Now I see you
You *******
"FIRE ALL TORPEDOES"
“But captain...that is our own ship, sir”
“I said fire all torpedoes”
“Yes Sir, Right away, sir”
“Captain says fire all torpedoes”
“Wait…aren’t we still at the dock?”
“Yes we are…fire all torpedoes”
Red flashing lights
“Fire in the hole!”
Fire in the hole

Yeah there is some of this still stuck between my bones. White like sea birds dipping on the wind
You are thunder and lightning
A wind that pulls at my only soul

The scratch of the grasshopper
As rain taps here and.           There
On the roof

Can you understand
That the gust of your word breaths
Dip deep rooted trees
A haunted howl on the wind
The scent of lavander and rose bud

How that would smell
On the give of your neck

The waves stir demon high
From the scream of your whisper
Floods homes next to the sea

But I would sleep on a wet floor
Sleep cold in your wind

Today I threw it all into the river
And the pieces all splashed
Pulled along the current

If I die
Put my body in the sea
Where your storms boil

I am alone again. It's time to clean out the dark corners of my mind
And sweep the pieces together. They glitter below the naked light bulb
This was the poem I began in haste
this is the line I wish to replace
The feelings I feel are true
A question myself as I walk
How I dream of lying next to you-
I want to share this experience
This pinpoint in (time) in which we were both born
on the precipice of something great
on the edge of decisions
all I know is that i feel the warmth of sun when you look at me
When you speak I am whole and I linger at each word


Do not deny me!
Do not deny this love
I am many things and a liar

But you are present in my heart
and your moments in time and space
Can be prepared on an x and y axis

and there

that point where space and time curve together as two lovers
I died and when I opened my eyes to meet my maker
I was lying next to you on the grass
Because you dragged me to the drive in

and I begged for your neck
and for the softness of your eyes

You are a thorn in my soul
I cannot remove/ Let me sleep next to you
Let me sleep next to you
Let me breathe the same air you breathe
Or i fear I must deny my own soul

I have drempt:
Lucidly, she dyes the edges clay-colored  
Eyeing eye she aligns her body with the North Star
She shivers without notice
        Ocher eyes alive
she speaks in new forms of divination
And the weather is in her palm
Trick of light    trick of eye
Her sigh awakens 9 Ravens
     without thought
            She is
    Caught in the spider web
         Spun
Autumnal ghost
Beneath Harvest moon
    swoons at the bark of the dire wolf
Without care
making eye contact
Running fingers through the silver fur
  Paying close attention to scars
Letting him drink
From lips of pink
The milk of first-kiss
And leads him home  
To a palace of bone
Humming tunes that only dogs know
Her head is light on his chest
She listens to his heart beat
Beating Eagles wing
In time
In rhyme
A tune
Of runes
Smooth Aquarius
Flowing through the toes
Of purple mountains
Spilling waterfalls and
Filling frigid
Black pools rimmed
By moss caked stone

Leaves scarlet, and hay colored
Float aimlessly on the surface of her

Peaked
Ears Stung and bit of wind
She listens whole body tensed
bow string
face    Sun stained
ethereal
Enamored
swimming in the aphotic
Lake of his soul
He plays the dulcimer of shadow
Next to fire
& the light of her blossom
exposing
Waterfall
flow
Through snow mountains
Piqued
His attention
When she dances languid
To
Forgetten tunes that only the owl knows
****
she dances star soaked
Scarlet tulips pressed
Fill every page of her mind
Preserved eternal

I can't explain the infinite

A child teeming with light

The machine digging at the statue

Sudennly spotted in the stoplight


Names become numbers

Dogs barking under the streetlight

One hundred fingertips pressing

The temple

I am only a lost child, searchig for a mother in father
Who were turned to dust by bombs
The ability for space
The ability for time
Humans no longer being
A shout
Echoes in an abandoned factory
Throwing stones at the eyes
Who come in our sleep
Sharp stones to scrape the flesh from machine
A young boy
With tied shoes
Standing near the fire
Break the screens

Thrice denied
I squelch the snarl in my throat
The shakes keep me humble
Scraping for the push hit
Lips to nape
Feral moans at your hairline
Devine

I'd slit a throat for the wash
And watch blood pool and coagulate
Such a sweet metallic savor
Write to me
Poetry
From heaven and or hells chambers
Just a drop of water upon my tounge
A single trembling drop

No one understands you because you imagine you are better
                    Than all the others
                                When your feast is served you share nothing

2. You are hungry yet you have eaten fully
                        You stumble
                                The wine is so heavy in your belly
3. The people walk the empty streets
     Crowded

    Sitting in waiting rooms
     Coughing
    
    Standing in line
(You look into crowds of empty eyes)

4. The cuts on your wrist are silent
                          (Yet you speak incessantly of them
                             As of they are your children)
      The cuts on your legs are silent
                            (Easier to hide these cuts
                                      Not so bright red against the pale backdrop of your arm)

5. Your hair is long
        The day is cold and wind cursed
            You press at the hem of your skirt

6. The place once called home is still there
     Somehow different
        Quieter -
        Everyone is awake
         Gone                               Somewhere they make sound and love to the sky

              unstable

7. You sleep but you find no rest
     You awaken but you still feel like you are sleeping
   The dreams turn to nightmares
Flashbacks/memories of things once loved now hated
Things once pure are now full of lies
         (The radio crackles as you search for the station)

8. You cover yourself in clothes
     You think silly thoughts
"I'm alive! I matter!"

9. You want to believe
     You want to have the faith of a child
              But children don't see the things you've seen
             You feel the barb of pain
                     Throbbing in your ribs

10. Your mind is now your greatest enemy
         It tells you
     Love.     The flamiliar heat of wonder
                    You squeeze your thighs together
Hate.        The lonliness that comes
                   When the heat dies



        You lie on your bed
       Unable to defeat the enemy of self
     You lie awake
      Praying but none listen
You whisper thoughts of longing    your flesh alone against the sheets

Good god
Im late for work
I can hear her thinking
I watch her leave
her eyes smile so right
I watch the clock go round
I watch the clock around
Off shadows, numbers, lines
I know when the boys come to the counter laughing
begging for a kiss
her black hair
with its line of pink
I can hear her voice
that Southern Belle
through her smile
"Well honey your sweet but Ive got a boy"
She comes home
the front door is locked at night
she drags herself in
broke for the night
and falls into bed
and falls into bed
and falls into bed
Two hundred miles away
I can hear her voice smiling
"I love you baby"
that shiver you only get
when someone kisses your picture
my picture crumpled in the hand of a sleeping doll
My picture crumpled by the Southern Belle

I guess you have beautiful eyes
all those straight lines you make in my mind
I have so much to ask for
you dont want it all because you forget
I know what I'm doing
When I see you walk by
When I watch you walk by

I guess when your lost in this world
where the one you love
doesnt have your name
burned into their mind

Please don't be much longer
It's already been clock after number
Please I know

Its fun to be so lost
but you should remain down there as long as you can
lost in the sky

I drempt that I flew
And then I knew I'd die young
Above emerald seas I did soar
Salt

I dream and I slither
Among razor obsidian
And on the ash I feast
I am alone
Watching sun slip
Scarlet fury splitting
Old & cyclic

In the dark parking lot I stand leaned against the car
Smoking cigarettes as I wait for the lights to flick off
Then exactly forty 5 seconds later
The lights flicker once again
In her window
My heart is a crescendo
Of mad mad laughter
Two minutes later on the dot
I am walking up with my coat in my arms
And she whistles down at me from the stone wall. She drops
Momentarily her white hospital gown catches
Revealing the pale skin laced with razor blade spider web cuts
Blue and black bruises finger-shaped beneath her small breast
Then she is in my arms again her chest is heaving as she embraces me
Holding me tightly her bare feet on the cold wet pavement
I feel whole again
I give her my coat and we get into the car
Her laugh and smile hysterical
Mirrored in her eyes
We speed away
Finally off the meds
She asks for a cigarette
She checks the rear-view
"Something is chasing me." She says

&@&!?*
B l o w i n g  W  ind and planets from your mouth
Your head fills up like a thunderhead
With candy cane lightning

           Burnt down birthday candle
            Stick o dynamite
                      Feelin alright
                  Fire makes the light
                            In the middle of my fingers
                      Fireworks linger
Until angels come and wave them away
Off into space
The hope of the human race
Floating on radio signals
Short crested waves

Crests that peak in white foam
Plucked by strings
Finger bones
The fool withone hand
Juggles like a pro
Joining the circus when he was twelve
And one fateful day
On the fifteenth of may
A lion had his fingers for dinner
Would you sup with me?
The prince disguised as the pauper
You would I bet
Share my last cigarette
As we balance on a chain linked fence
Trapped in a cage
With only one book
You wouldn't believe
Which one I took

I woke up and wrote your letter
The Morning sun wash shining
After a long rainy night
I spent it trying to understand
How I am supposed to float
How the trees are supposed to wrap and squeeze
The raven on his branch
****** harm of the moon
White light through forest seeps
Forget the meaning of a moment
Pressing on the tile
How your skin was warm
And your hands alright
Fire burned from Hades that day
And the claws of demons reached up
To scratch my screams
Your parables are a common monolouge
******* in my brain
Revalations and Galatians, Ezekial, Jeremiah
John the APOSTLE to christ
Was exiled to the island Patmos
A bullet would put my brain on ice
Character Speech of Naked demons
Pouring Fire onto the world
to ash
to ash
to ash
The seven seals
Breath the ash in and out
Standing strong footed in the Millenium
Where he rules again
With an iron rod
Despair
Rebellion Screams in the blood of your young heart
A spray of ****** violence against a creator of lust
and love
and pain
and ash
The prince of peace
Whose blood anointed the sins of the childerens childrens children
Speeding up to heaven on winged steeds
Let your words pierce my armor
Unto my very bones
It is better than this pain I feel
Your own annointed son
Bleeding on an alter
Incense swirling this
I wish the mounains
Would fall upon me

Hands Hands Hands
Reach Reach Reach
Sparrow
Like
An
Arrow
Passing through the trees
Riding
Down the
Road again
Hand Hand Hand
Against the wind
Stuck behind a school bus
Waiting on a train
Follow me to nowhere
In a driving rain
I forgot about the days
When I was most alone
And fell in love with anyone
Who called me on the phone
I beg your pardon please
Someone say my name
Fumes of burning ether
Licking up my brains
Licking up my brains
Lick me up again

Unhitched feel me now like a blast furnace     Total ****-up   Remeber? the one who was pallbearer & genderless
Neo natal I'm at the rim pitch black coughing up laughter finding **** in the face of it
Cog in the computer
Backward  bell curve
Left skewed
Average
Low
So low
Nobody in particular really
just mashing buttons hoping it's a payoff
Not god just a phantom limb living for the hell of it

A hundred goodmornings
The servants smile at my running through the halls
The sun of the blue eyed king
The sun of the pale skinned king
Sun and stained glass
Velvet and satin
Running and playing
I love the gardens
The trees and the flowers
Are my favorite friends
Children play tag with me
In the mid-morning rain
Drinking cool water
From silver goblets
And eating the fruit from tall golden trees
Climbing and dancing the day is everlasting
Fearing for nothing
So we grew so tired
And lie in the shade
The look of the clouds
Ivory ships on the sea
The smell of the grass
Twisting our minds
So we lie and we listen to birds
And their chorus
As the sun goes down orange in the east
We take off our shoes
When they call for the feasting
Where father sits strong at the head of the table
And the minstrels and bards come
Singing us fables
With strong wine in our bellies
We laugh and we cry
Long songs of sea
And one of two lovers
A ballad of hunters
A song about kings
Princes and Lions
Winter and summer
My favorite song went
"La, la la la were two young children
Riding on elephants
La, la la la
Love like a mountain
La, la, la, la
Love like an ocean
La, la, la, your name on my tongue"
I cried and I whistled along with the people
The candles made shadows dance on the wall
Jesters came dancing and twirled on the table
As my belly grew thicker and thicker with wine
And I could have got up
Walked down to the village
And found you asleep on a soft feather bed
Yet I drink and I drink until my mind starts spinning
Talking and walking  the world never stops
When the wizard came in and spoke of the great stars
Telling us stories of dragons and heroes
Telling us stories of dungeons and meadows
Telling us stories of a lone maidens tears
And I thought of you
I could have just got up
Leaving the feast to look for your eyes
I would have find you out in the garden
Lying under the trees where I like to rest
We could have looked at the stars
Until I stopped spinning
That's all that I thought before I fell asleep

In my throat you have taken root-
The radical violates my lips
Gouging my smile until teeth are broken
Its humid tendrils drop black soil in the cavity of my lungs
The bark of the ***** startled the rabbit
All this reflected in the eye of a raven

Firstborn:
How have I known thee?
Surely it is not our first meeting you and I spring
Come and gone are the lifetimes
Past eternities we have known:
In which we ran naked through the orchards
Sleeping beneath a sky of stars innumerable
A sky still ****** of smoke

I walked in the cool evening
Two dogs at my heels
When we met
I was born and the words were dammed up
The flute of Pan was played as in moonlight we lay
Unafraid Spring and I

Who hath sculpted mountains?
Wind and water are the paint and brush
Stone and flame-Ice and sea
Lightning dancing cloud to cloud
Surely Thor's begun to weld
Upon the anvil of the sky

What is poetry to a flower
A single petal gives justice to a thousand lifetimes
Oh to be
In the vein of a leaf
Or the one running blue o'r your thin wrist

Be still and listen
For a night
For a day
God sings a song of Spring
Love not thyself

The memories are pinned to dry in the dark room
Chemical droplets falling on my tongue
The bruises form on my body
Giant purple nebula that twist and take on
New forms and shades
A dull pain that aches when alone
A beast chained and locked away
I swallow the key
He will find it
And he will be free
His claws reverberate as he crawls along the ancient stone floors
His moans and growls echo in the darkest reaches
Beneath the smile
Beneath the polite gestures
Beneath the polished fake surface coat

Words cannot explain it
Using symbols to define symbols
Define the divine?
It is a life cycle
Rotating within a universe cycle
Oneness
For energy is never lost
Only shared for a while
A constant hum
Resonating within you
Not only birth
Not only death
For they are one in the same
The Inhale The Exhale
Exert your will upon the universe
Do you feel it push back?
The cycle remains after
Your consciousness
Is blown out like the candle
Birds are birds and only birds
They are satisfied to sing
The warmth of sun
The ancient oceans
The changing of seasons
Cycles among the cycles
All of us spinning upon the same ellipses
A moon caught in rotation

Tremors upon the placid surface of my consciousness
Ripples playing outward into the dark
Until it returns to a state of calm
And I see my reflection clearly in the surface

Needle in the hay stack
The spin of the weather vane
I took a drink of you
And felt heavy to the touch
I lay back on my bed and opened up the dark
I woke up dead
Or maybe half alive
I miss the words
That came from your lips
Poems as mystical as a cloud of smoke
I allowed to twist around my fingers
Maybe I thought of them
Maybe not
Words like forests as deep and as dark
You skip from pool to pool of silver moonlight
Beaming through the trees
Singing a song I once heard in a dream
A bird
A whistle
As you snap your fingers
As you tap your foot
You never trip on
The terrible black roots
That reach up like fingers.
Somewhere far away or very near
You picked a flower
And placed it behind your ear
You sit cross legged a minute
As you drink your can of beer on the porch
You say you feel important and high up
Like angels found you and brought you back
To me
How I see the porch light
Reflecting your hair
As you twirled a lock and whispered
Mars is visible tonight
Red and bright
A shooting star
And you wish

On time with the cosmic dance of fire and color and rain
Earthquake Heartache Lust and Pitty
Your eyes glow in every dark alley
Of this sad quiet city

One Mississippi
Two Mississippi
Three Mississippi
I first saw you in the desert
Beneath a crescent moon
Where the scorpion and asp
Fight over dust
Stone pillars
In the belly of a dune
Your face half covered
As you ride a white horse

Don't come back
See no evil
It must have been
A dream
Or at least
I awoke to the sound of rain
As it fell in the jungle around me
In the mist of morning
The vines cling and wrap
And monkeys barked like dogs
The snake coiled on the branch
On a log you sit cross-legged
Smiling
Or maybe

You were imagined
When I was stranded at sea
Having fever dreams on the back
Of an orange saftey raft
Until the sun burned the skin
As the fever climbed
Blue cool water beneath me
I fall in
Letting the cold wake me
For a moment
From the terrors
The clear blue water
Sun shining through
I saw you below the waves
Smiling
Turning to kick down into the deep black

I followed you
Watching your white calves kick
Up and down
Following you deeper
Long after my lungs gave way
I descended
Until sunlight couldn't reach me
And your warm fingers
Touched my face
In the frigid deep
And then
You
Became everything

It gives me goosebumps
When you scream like that
Into space where words are
Acrobats
Who are you? Did you just
Whisper my name
As we watch a movie
(with the lights off)
Here we are.
Watching constellations on an old and broken couch
The hair on my neck is doing
Somersaults
Exhale heat has done a number
to my each passing thought.
You're killing me.
Do you know that you're killing me
With completeness
You lost your locket in the cushions
Making problems for the mailman
Years ago he knocked on the door.
We fall back as the film reaches the ******
coming back after a year and change of lying
It's been so long since I've held someone
Who held me back

God cursed us with a long cold winter
You'll find me warming my hands
Next to the fire
Or sleeping soundly at the bottom
Of this freezing lake

So make a change
trace the skin beneath my ear again
the black and fickle strands of hair
i flow face-down in the river of your
silver scent
the gentle grasp of your whisper
inhaling me and screams closer
the sun and moon of your lips and cheek
feeling whole the high never lasts
between the beats of your heart
I can feel the cracks
the film has reached it's ******
the movie star faker makes me want to laugh
love is forever but it never lasts

Your body is eleven temples and at the cold jade alter the incense swirls

You are the inky crescent tying
Knots to the tide

Riddling me again

A well placed storm
Tears me from your port

And the fog of you settles over me
Frigid among the waves

Black arrow spins through
Cold winter air-catching breath
Cleaves the heart in two

It didn't make sense
It felt Fingers
Chain link fence

So the moon dim
Gibbus tide riddle

Keep your wheel in the hairpin
Bite  a hook
You'll be my friend

Go ahead
Spike the ocean
A drop of salt blood
The wolf of horizon runs
Spilling fangs of
red dwarf sun

Can you water:
Crash against the rock
Until pieces of you break off
Pristinely lying on my skin

Think air until you hear
Grandeur breath of leaves
Mountain or dog
Sing songs of love

Goodbye
White cheek
Spun in moonlight
Foot to the path
Song on the tounge
Free til I'm dog
Whiskey til I'm drunk
Hold my breath
Count to ten
Blue eyes / begin again

She walks
Such a lithe/! feline step all of hips and she knows not
I am tempted so by the organic process of her
When she looks into my eyes
A Loadstone glow
A flicker - spark  

Now an inferno uncontained rages
Between us a cloud of electricity
Static
Waiting

SilentlyI dare glance
into those eyes
Let me
The polarization so instant at our first touch

They tell me she is not mine
She belongs to another
But her eyes

Do you feel it when you look into the fire?
The hairs on your neck will stand up
Do you feel it pulse inside you when
Your sight narrows
and sweat. It whispers in the heart
When you have been denied
The crimson anger swells
and its nails tear into
the flesh of your
Being

The first time I felt it
In the fifteenth winter of my life
When my grandfather was still
On this side of time-
I watched his wrinkled hands
load the rifle
And the snow was thick
The cigarette smell of his truck cab
The walk into the forest
Birds that sing in morning
Suns ray. We crossed into
The valley and walked around the
Circumfrence. My feet were wet
And the rifle was heavy
My skin was cold
I dare not complain

the long wait

There a golden stag
My grandfather pointed
And with an urgent whisper
We drop to the frigid ground
And I follow his finger out
In the  valley among the brambles
He stands

Heartbeats among the silence
and the smell of stale cigarette
breathe among the pines...
the grain of wood on the rifle
I see every line and the black
of the beast's eyes through the scope

the feeling of time dragging slowly
no longer seconds and minutes but
the multitude of years between heartbeats and breaths
I see the "target" as the ten thousandth time I have fired
This rifle I breathe
He breaths and my grandfather whispers
a scream in my ears

I hear the golden watch around my
grandfather's wrist tick away
centuries and I am a thousand
years old and that buck is
ten thousand years old
Both of us hungry and cold


then the morning was broken
and birds flew away in haste
My grandfather's loud cheer
and his wrinkled hand clasping
my shoulder.

"You've caught the fever now boy!"

It's warm coagulated blood melts the snow
And the cold steel of the knife
My grandfather's ****** smile and the look of pride
"Good shot, son. I hope no man is unlucky enough to find a place between your cross-hairs."

You feel it now and again
A greater high than any
Chemical can give
Even that tightening of the chest and the smell of blood on the nostrils.

I see it sometimes in the fire
In the red embers late at night
I gaze into the glow
Inside it's deep heavy laugh
As it gazes back at me

I am lying about birds
Same the grass like fingers
The clouds are not perfect
Only chemical images
Of tables and chairs and normal living things
Mountain dagger
I picked up and cut the vines with
Shadows are cut from scissors
And
      Silently placed upon the floor
Dreamed up in ashes
And mixed with water
          On old China dishes
Tables snapped and spat on
Nighttime took my soul
And spread it on the sea
Where its cursed eternal
Locked in chaotic storms
Lighting that split
Directly outside your window
And in that moment you saw the bright glow
When you know about fear
Echoes are never friendly
Titanic split silences
Beds are a safer place sometimes
While other times its hell
So i wrapped a bit of tree bark
Once cooked by lightning
And a clover crushed swallowed
Dreams are beautiful places on the back of my mind

The air is warm today
With a soft and slight humidity
The perfect temperature
For an adventurer

The wisteria were in full bloom
Hanging from the basket of tree trunks
Overflowing purple and white petals

The birds sing songs of danger
Calling out territories
Guarding their new hatched young

Beautiful songs to me
Strike terror in the heart of some
Lone crow

I watch as two red breasted doves
Chase the angry crow from the crown of an evergreen
Their spinning and chirping looks playful and joyous
But courage beats in their little hearts
As they fight off the thieving devil

Blue skies are cloudless between the canopy
Yellow sunlight drifts down and through the branches
Creating radiant yellow pools on the moss and dirt
Squirrels chase each other through the glowing puddles
As if they too are playing

Down on a fallen stump
I sit
Counting the growth rings up to fifty

Sudennly I realize how young I am
How foolish and unknowing I am
Ancient trees loom around me speaking in leafy whispers
Deep dark sylvan beauty
A childish breeze blows through the treetops

Sudennly the most beautiful creature I have ever seen
Stands on a log across the clearing
I hide behind a thick tree
....was I seen?

Her thin shadow moves around the stump where I sat
She kneels to exam a row of ants
Crawling up an old root

She has a green notebook now open on her knees
She squiggles notes between the lines
Stopping to squint at the line of soldiers
Pointing and counting
..1....2....3....4.5....6..7....
She seems to count for a while
And then writes furiously

She sits on the stump
With the notebook in her lap
She has a beautiful little smile
The smile of someone
With a very secret-secret
That must be told

She could be a ghost
I know these woods are haunted
But the way she held the pencil between her teeth
As she counted the growth rings on the stump
Was not very ghostly

She drinks from a canteen
I must be thirsty
My mouth is quite dry
Maybe that's a good enough excuse
"Hello, my name is Jacob, and I have been watching you from the shadow of this tree for the past few minutes and I was wondering if I could have a drink?"
No, I cannot do that

Besides
I am a scientist

Only an observer


(A strand of her hair falls in her eyes and she puts puts it behind her ear)



Especially now because she has stood up and walked to the edge of the clearing
Where she kneels by a flower
And begins to draw it in her green notebook

Drawing and tracing
Hair behind her ear
A strand falls on her cheek as she works



So silent
My heart skips a beat as she finishes
picking a petal and placing  it between the pages

You went

La


La

******

We were going mad-

I heard you laugh

Like planets spinning

Gentleman Jack ****** my head

I felt ok, sally

Like I'm sailing on a boat

The eggs you made were runny

So you rang my bell

I'm just a chipped-tooth liar

Running around the town

I smell the beer on your breath

I feel your tongue in my ear

Run run run run

To the river

I feel the flames at my heels

Right on kitty kitty

You have a hole in your tights

The peppermint on your skin

made

Made my lips fill with blood

Like a ride on an elephant

Take a walk with a giraffe

We dug for dinner with the ant eater

Naked feet in the dirt

With your hands and your smile

You make the big world feel alright

Soft Skin Spread Red
Wet Vein Breathe Squeeze
Whipsper Kiss'er

For a penny and a half we got
A a pack of stinky socks
For a dollar and a half we got
Two baby singing birds
Two nickels and a dime we got
A bag of heavens light
Come on man
You know I'm on the level
Haggling with the silver tongue
I finally got his ring
You won't believe how bright it shines
Magic pulsing green
So we rubbed a couple pennies smooth
And pulled our cash together
To buy a jar of lightning bugs
That helped us see at night
I traded up my trusty hat
For a pistol with two shots
You traded your last can of beef
For a shiny perfume bottle
You sprayed it and at the bottom
Was left a little drop
An old coat I had
The elbows stained in mud
I traded that for a rusty sword
With a ruby in the handle
You thought you needed
A warm blue egg
Because you traded your left shoe
The man at the bazaar with the shining tooth
One eye green and one eye blue
Rear my palm for a single lock
Of your dark red hair
A ripped up pack of playing cards
Missing the jack of clubs and joker
Tattered torn biology book
With someone's name in it
Told me everything about you
For the price of a boot lace
A bag of wool for a motel room
We slept like stones
And all was fine

Sweet Carolina
I love your little voice
I love your little mind
I want to share your days
For the rest of time

Deep.                  It's been such a while without company

Where I sit here next to the stone wall...

                       Peaceful as the tree branch
The ivy climbs my wall
                        I can see
                             How it grows through the cracks
Blood vessel trees
Still pumping life        
                                       Breathing you in and out
                                  I feel tired
                                    My eyes are heavy
                                         The wine in my belly
        Moss hangs down
           Ghosts on a wind
                      Do you care to listen
                          ...To the tears of God glisten
Dripping from the leaves
                  The moment you drink the poison
                   You realize what alive means
                    A forest
                      Savor each beating of your heart
                       Every breath in your lungs
                The sun is starting to set
                     And although you hear its noises
                 The forest grows quiet
Your eyes close
Falling asleep on the leaves

I laugh
At my
Pistol-whipped
Forehead
Bleeding in the sunset
You have no Ideas
Of my yearning
-Your saynothings-
Say everything
-Your longlookings-
Tear holes in me
Your breathy eyes
Are long awaited
By someone like
Me
Your someone I know
Who sat across from me
In a basement
Who laughed with me
Rollecoastering
All the while not knowing
Your smile Is warmer than any sunset
Even this one
I look at longingly
I know tonight you will kiss the neck of another
Wrapped In the poison arms of another
While I nurse this forehead of mine
This broken heart of mine

It is in my bones and in the fields when I stop on the road to watch
A barbed wire fence running across your chest
You wear the clouds as a mask
Hididng a smile? Hiding a scowl? You will not disclose
Lust and love are two wolves
They run and play at the nape of your neck
Licking one another by the sea of your scent
24 years later your eyes are deep blue
And more precious than silver
Your words bring peace to my marrow and my belly is full of laughter
No wine on my lips
Your taste unmingled

I am a fool for your glances
And my soul soars among mountaintops at your laughter
Your fingers speak a familiar language against mine

I will never forget this moment and I treasure even the silence between us

You don't see what I'm putting up with
How I am lying here with gritted teeth
And a stomach full of acid
Creeping its way up my throat
You said you didn't want someone with a heart on his sleeve
So I tore it off and it stayed where it dropped
For someone so obsessed with looks
It sure was easy to sew these eyes shut

Are we moving in the right direction?
Someone who is strong
        You know I had a dream about us once
         And we were up on the roof
        I was afraid to sit on the edge
           But I did it any way
I've listened close for any sign of moment of betrayel in your camp

But not so much as a scratch from a mouse

All I see is your power

Your strengh

Your unwavering courage

As wind billows through your tall bright banners

Always a thousand reasons why not

With only one reason why


If I never would have read your words I never would have known
How you can spill black couldrons of malice, but show beauty still
You can open up the sky with your words
Build a storm in its belly
But still feel pitty if it rains down on me

I can feel your combat boots

On my front teeth

At my groin

Snapping my ribs

Still even then, you reach down for a kiss

They had a feast in your honor
I decided not to go

I decided to walk the great gardens
Balancing on the high stone walls

Jumping here or there
Listening to birds sing

Sun up
I was nobody in particular

Getting lost in the buisness of things

I could have been a beetle walking on a leaf

I could have been a fox
Watching you from the quiet of a hedge

So when I lay down on that green grass
Everything so altogether warm

I didn't think about you
or me
or your monologues

I thought of a hand full of bees

Pulling at my body like pollen
Spreading me out over the life

The pond full of hungry coy
Hyacinth

A silent crane watching me

I would swim in this pond
But I am satisfied to loom above my reflection

Seeing myself reflected on the background of heaven

"Trust me, I'm as poetic as you"
I let my words do the speaking
In a world with open mouths leaking
Words without weight-
Me and you know better
We removed our minds from fetters
Two sides of the coin
We are Cut from the same cloth
I know-
Mingling our poetic blood