I’m singing this song,
Don’t know what to expect,
But the words, they keep flowing,
And the music, it keeps going,
And I reach my highs when I sing and think,
    of you,
And I reach my low when I say something,
    I really didn’t want to,


‘Cause I want you,
    So. ****. Bad.
I wanna live up to,
    Every expectation you have.
I wanna sing the problems in your life away,
I wanna make sure the notes I hit stay,


I want you to hear me say,
That every day,
    I need you,
And that way,
    You make me,
Makes the next day worth living.


‘Cause I want you,
    So. ****. Bad.
I wanna live up to,
    Every expectation you have.
I wanna sing the problems in your life away,
I wanna make sure the notes I hit stay,


'Cause every time I wake up,
    I smile,
And every breath I take up,
    Is great,
When I hear you say,
    “I love you,”
And the feeling you give me stays,
    It’s true.

-July 14th 2013 (Lol the sun is rising right now)

Regret,
Is all I feel,
Forget,
What is real,

Just let it all go,
Just let go-o,
Just so you know,
I reached my lo-ow,

Cause you’re my everything,
Please hear my soul singing,
Hear the tones in my pleading,
Without you there is no breathing,
Cause my lungs are BLEEDING,
Is this what it feels like,
When your hand and eyes are SCREAMING!?

I’ve reached my low,
I want to let it all go,
I want to say no,
I want show you my glow,
....
    BUT NO!

I get caught up in this ****,
And even further I seem to dig,
Like being six feet UNDER,
I’m not like the OTHERS,

Sorry means sorry in my book,
Unless they give you a look,
Or it was something they took,
Like a ******* CROOK,
...
So please,

Just let it all go,
Don’t let it show,
Just let it go,
Cause I know you know I reached my low.

-July 14th 2013

Seeing pictures of her hurts,
That girl,
The girl that walks backwards,
And never learns,

The girl that sheds a smile,
A charlatan’s smile,
Her siren skin,
Shed for some worthless sin,

Kissing up to strangers for drugs,
Letting them places no love goes,
Terrible doings just to get some,
Of that godforsaken blow,

LIKE WATCHING A CHILD JUMP,
    OFF A LEDGE!
I CAN’T STOP HER JUMPING,
    OFF THAT LEDGE!
DON’T GO!
GRAB ON!

Like setting fire to snowfall,
Like landing hard when you fall,
Like killing something unique,
You’re a tragedy,
to me.

-July 15th 2013

Ironic I was begging a day ago,
Feeling the winds shift around,
But somehow I knew you’d show,
And attempt to dampen my sound,

I knew you’d uncover that husk,
I knew you’d sing some new lie.
Instead of prepping, I was having fun,
And when I read that line,
    I thought I’d die.

I thought you were gone months ago,
But I knew I was ******* wrong,
Somehow I knew the monster’d show,
And for some reason, I’m writing this song,

What makes you think you can barge in,
What makes you think I’ll even notice,
You should know when I spoke of skin and sin,
Your husk of black was not the focus,
    You’re so ferocious.

Comparing yourself to angels is low,
    Even for you,
Decomposing such beauty is low,
    Even for you,
And noticing my poem is low,
    Even for you,
But I’ll always stand tall when I’m low,
    Even when it’s against you...
CAUSE I’M STRONGER
    THAN THE OTHERS!
YOU WON’T BREAK ME,
    I CAN’T BLEED!
TURN AND WALK AWAY,
    WHY MUST YOU STAY?!
IT’S OVER CAN’T YOU SEE,
    LEAVE ME BE!

I Hope You Run With Scissors, I Hope You Stub Your Toes, I Hope You Spill Your Glass Of Milk.

-July 17th 2013

Like my guardian angel, this ghost still stalks me,
Like a long lost spirit, it still sails this sea,

And maybe it just wants some closure,
But maybe it’s just digging me far lower
    Than before.

It shows up in every **** way,
As peace goes, there’s been one day,
    When it all went away.

It was a Friday in July and I said goodbye,
But before that I kissed your sweet lips,

And for one day my ghosts were gone,
But only when we
Were alone.
When we
        Were alone.

You are my only shield now,
I hope you know you make me proud,
Cause everyday I see your face,
It sure increases my pace,
In every imaginable way.

But my ghosts they followed me,
They forced their hollowed inner-beings,
And chased me back into the ground,
Where I was forced to sound,
    For help.

Cause every now and then I see them,
In their dark wicked ways,
    On the most,
    Peculiar of days.

But I still dream of the day they saw,
That I’m far greater and even farther gone,


They went away for one day,
When we,
Were alone,
When we,
    Were alone.

Like charcoal to a vermillion rose,
Like smearing the perfect mirror,
Like a fire to an evergreen forest,

I made a mistake.

And every time I breathe I regret every single word I said,
And every time I see I can’t forget those words I said,
And every time I breathe I regret every single word I said,

I made a mistake.

Like taking a life, I took some some of her pride,
Like telling a lie, I told her something I didn't mind,
Like turning back time, I committed the worst kind of crime,

I made a mistake.

Oh hey there honey won’t you see me on my knees,
Oh hey there sweetie can’t you see me pleading,
Oh hey there lovely I love ya so **** much,

I made a mistake,
And every second since then,
I felt regret.

-July 14th 2013

I hope that when the sun sets at night,

That maybe you’ll think of me,

And when your eyes seem to ignite,

You can maybe see

    That,

    I... Uh,

    Well,

    I love you.


I know I say it, Please know I mean it,

‘Cause every minute I think it.

I know you’ve seen it, Believe it,

‘Cause every breath I take I breathe it.

-July 17th 2013

To the phantoms and fakers tucked away in my skull,

JUST GO!

To the haunters and creepers tucked away in my brain,

JUST GO!


Pack up your bags,

Take the bus closest,

Go somewhere high,

Throw over a rope,


With that ****** rope,

Pull yourself down,

Below the surface water,

And please,

        Drown.


And while you’re in hell,

Please do remember,

Hiding behind that shell,

Toying with the kind souls,


And I hate you cause,

When you broke that seal,

You became special,

A special kind of,

Evil.


-July 14th 2013

When I close my eyes
             I see you;
                          Every time I blink,
Your sweet smile
             Your soft voice;
                          Always makes me think,
What’d it be like with you here
             Always by my side;
                          Though what I crave most is a wink
             From your gleaming eyes,

From a distance
             I see you live life
                          To your greatest reach,
Always yourself
             No one else;
                          Not caring what they preach,
You never fail to find a way
             To frame all of your thoughts;
                          With a pen you break each
             Boundary that they ever taught.

-November 2012