Too much to say for only
one line
charming and deep
still
running short of time

ill take  a few moments
please awaken my soul
a verse or two,or three
to ease and fill this hole

quick witted
i claim
slow speeched
i convey
it seems everything in between
is meek
an easy role to play
mere uttered of words
of a beautiful girls regret
lacking of gerth im trying to convey
my role in life is set

fall onto paper
quotes
clear my aching brain
make me wise
make me sane

love me leave me
weeping with passionate tears
all for this the hope
of my dreams and
comparison of my life to theirs

it seems to be getting no easier you know,
the part in my mind where i let you go.
id like to pretend that all is of well
when honestly it gets no better of a story to tell

days turned to months in a time when they were few
now every song book and love poem still reminds me of you,
skies of blue, skies of gray, all tend to lead me astray.

In my dreams I see your smile, and your eyes,
as unrealistic as it seems
they sing songs of old times
cries when i awaken cause its only in my dreams.

do you think of me i wonder
but it will stay one of my biggest blunders


life how you envision it is never what will be

I just wanna sing songs of greatness
Songs neglecting you in them
Words that elude immenseness
But transparent i am.

my morals are questionable
My thoughts inescapable
passionate shadows pass through my mind
gripping my heart stealing time
Places I go in my mind are darker than I am willing to share
so i keep them far away so i can see them there
close enough to see my smile
Far enough to evade the story behind
I wanna hear music that speaks my mind
that reaches out to you and wrenches your reluctant kind
When the beat hits the high note I hope it confesses your regress.
and forces a rue  thought of solace

listen to a higher love..but i cant find it
searching under rocks and hurdles that i create in my head unable to fill this.
questions circulate
the torture i place on my own plate
to eat and swallow like the shallow tears
that wont surface for over the years
I have hardened my jaded heart giving me solemn and yet peace
i have to learn to release,

release the pain, let go of the demon tht lies in wait
for me to give in and exhibit my inherited trait
selfish, not selfless like tht which i yearn for
draining good hearts and killing my own
fill this whole with what i own.

taking and taking leaving sludge of regret
listening to those demeaning voices in my head.
saying youre just like her you cant walk away
even when if it means

being alone possibly forever.