Right then I knew
When the room changed colors
When patterns began to form
I looked into your eyes
They were so beautiful
Right then I knew
When our bodies melted into one
I had an overwhelming feeling
So beautiful
So pure
Never felt this good before
Right then I knew
When you kissed me
That I never wanted you to stop
I have fallen in love
Never felt this good before
Right then I knew
I love you
On this beautiful trip with you
I have never felt this good

You have so many faces and shades
I'll never know which face is really yours
What shade will you use today ?
I'll never know who you really are
You hide behind your addiction
Put it above all
Claim it's not a problem
But it's tearing us all
I've never known who you really are
Because all my life I've seen these different shades of you
Some more horrifying than others
Do you even know who you are anymore?
From all the lies, manipulations, your cruel words, your harsh hands, your tough grip...
Who are you ?

I do not have the beautiful words to describe the deep pain in the pit of my heart...
How it feels when her words betray my soul..
The words to describe how it feels when she puts her hands on me...
I do not know how to describe it, but it is awful.

I am an enigma
Made up of bad habits and insecurities
Haunted by bad memories and negative thoughts
If you could read my mind
You would be in tears

Everything is a misinterpretation
Of your deception
You think it's going to be okay but it is not.

I'm better off not feeling
Because its too revealing
Lets just stay in a haze
Till the day ends

I'm going to run away
Far enough so your grips can't reach me
Far enough from your abuse
Far enough so you can never hit me again
Far enough so your hands can't even touch me
Far enough so I can't hear your yelling
Far enough so I can't hear your cruel words
I'm going to run away
Far enough so you can never hurt me
Far enough so that I'll never see you again
Far enough from your abuse