I can still remember
how i started to tremble
My teeth snapped and unsnapped
along with my hands
fist; unfist

My eyes would gleam
my lips would become red
as would my checks
My heart would pound out of my chest

All because of the message you sent

when i was younger i realized i couldn't swim deeper into the pool
I was curious
I wanted to know what was there

when i was 14 i realized i wanted to swim in you
in your mind
in your heart

Then i realized, how much curiosity hurts
And the deeper i got

I could taste your salty taste in my mouth
Instead of having the water all around me
It was you, your hands, your body...

when i was 14
I realized you were drowning me