For more than 7 years,
I have love you from far,
For more than 7 months,
I hope that you will love me too,
For less than 7 hours,
You love my friend more than you love me,
I am a wall that always stick beside you,
I cannot touch neither said anything to you,
Because I know I am not good enough,
I have love you from far,
Since we were young,
and when nobody want to be with you,
Until one day,
I have fallen to you more than hundred times,
but you never know
but you never saw
because I am a wall
that stick still behind you,
I will always love you from far,
Until the day you say I Do to her,
I will step away,
because you have love my friend,
that I know can love you,
more like I love you.

This is my beyond expectations,
to believe the lie that you apply,
to hate the truth that you hide,
I could fly to the horizon,
I could swim deep in the ocean,
but this is beyond my expectations,
when you are the mask of jeckyl and hyde,
and the beast behind dorian gray,
I lost my words,
I lost my speech,
I am fool of believing in you,
yet I pretend that my mind is pure,
because I thought I am the light in the dark,
that one day could lead you away from astray,
This is beyond expectations,
because I still long for you,
and cling on you,
this is the inner voice deep in my head,
that I wish I could burst it out,
and **** your lies with my bullet of tears.

If I can look back and choose,
If I can be the another me,
If I can ask and have the answer,
Dear God,
Have mercy on me,
For the wrong things and thoughts,
Dear God,
Have mercy on me,
For the time that I am suppose to accept everything,
That now I feel so regret,
That if I can choose not to be here,
If I am just a thing that will never come out,
Dear God,
Have mercy on me,
For the time that I wish to change,
If I can choose not to present,
Dear God,
Have mercy on me,
Even I sang the psalms out loud,
and pray so hard until I cried so much,
even I am not your best children,
have mercy on me,
for the time that I hope it can pass quickly,
Dear God,
If all my prayers are so bad to be heard,
have mercy on me,
for I wish a wild card that you have save for me,
that my prayer to be strong and have faith in everything,
have mercy on me,
for the time that I wish I could change.

Once upon a time,
I am lost in the middle of the city,
Where the buildings are taller than the giraffe,
And the lights shine all day.
Once upon a time,
I found my way back home,
Where Mommy cook nice meals,
and Daddy watch the news headline of the day.
Once upon a time,
I am my way to go to school,
Where cycling is for boys,
and walking is for girls.
Now,
In presence time,
I am my own enemy,
When I am lost in the world of material that I have found.

Still,
I put hopes,
that one day,
you will turn your head,
and look for me.
But,
how can I love you?
when I am not your league,
and the road that I stand,
is not your path.
Hence,
I make a wish,
some day you will recognize me,
in the middle of the people that you met,
that suddenly,
your eyes will blink,
and your heart will beat,
when I am in front of you.
But,
how can I love you?
when I am here,
knowing that the facts,
I can't never be the one,
for you.

I am compassionate and pray hard,
because I am my own Snow White,
I am poise with my strong mind and spirit,
because I am my own Cinderella,
I am natural and cheerful,
because I am my own Aurora,
I am determined to follow my own dreams,
because I am my own Ariel,
I am loyal, outspoken and intelligent,
because I am my own Belle,
I am independent and have courage for myself,
because I am my own Jasmine,
I am brave and strong,
because I am my own Pocahontas,
I am bringing the honor for my family,
because I am my own Mulan,
I am faithful and assertiveness,
because I am my own Rapunzel,
I am not an ordinary Disney Princess,
because I am me.

Wake up by the sounds of the raindrops,
The chirping of the birds,
Orange sunrise,
I am doing well.

Running across the park,
Passing by the trees,
Breath clearly while run,
I am doing well.

Ate breakfast with the radio on,
Drank hot chocolate,
Read the morning newspaper,
I am doing well.

I am doing well.
Even no you with me.

I am doing well.
As long I am alive.

I am doing well,
Even we part the last good bye yesterday.

I am doing well,
Even I cried a river of sadness and hopeless,

I am doing well,
for the vows that we promised has been broken,

by you,
I am just doing well.

no words can describe it,
no talks can changed it.

And, as the river flow,
my love to you is over,
And, as the sunset rise,
all those love paid us our price.


while birds spread their wings to fly,
those words whisper you my good bye.

Like a night without the sun
Like a day without the moon
Like a breeze without the wind
Like a rain without a thunder
Like a bird without their wings
Like a flower without their petals
Like a lips without a smile
Like an eyes without a glare
Like a heart without a love
Like a ring without a finger
Like a man without a woman
Like a woman without a man
Like me who admires you
In silent,
I am speechless.