For more than 7 years,
I have love you from far,
For more than 7 months,
I hope that you will love me too,
For less than 7 hours,
You love my friend more than you love me,
I am a wall that always stick beside you,
I cannot touch neither said anything to you,
Because I know I am not good enough,
I have love you from far,
Since we were young,
and when nobody want to be with you,
Until one day,
I have fallen to you more than hundred times,
but you never know
but you never saw
because I am a wall
that stick still behind you,
I will always love you from far,
Until the day you say I Do to her,
I will step away,
because you have love my friend,
that I know can love you,
more like I love you.

This is my beyond expectations,
to believe the lie that you apply,
to hate the truth that you hide,
I could fly to the horizon,
I could swim deep in the ocean,
but this is beyond my expectations,
when you are the mask of jeckyl and hyde,
and the beast behind dorian gray,
I lost my words,
I lost my speech,
I am fool of believing in you,
yet I pretend that my mind is pure,
because I thought I am the light in the dark,
that one day could lead you away from astray,
This is beyond expectations,
because I still long for you,
and cling on you,
this is the inner voice deep in my head,
that I wish I could burst it out,
and **** your lies with my bullet of tears.

If I can look back and choose,
If I can be the another me,
If I can ask and have the answer,
Dear God,
Have mercy on me,
For the wrong things and thoughts,
Dear God,
Have mercy on me,
For the time that I am suppose to accept everything,
That now I feel so regret,
That if I can choose not to be here,
If I am just a thing that will never come out,
Dear God,
Have mercy on me,
For the time that I wish to change,
If I can choose not to present,
Dear God,
Have mercy on me,
Even I sang the psalms out loud,
and pray so hard until I cried so much,
even I am not your best children,
have mercy on me,
for the time that I hope it can pass quickly,
Dear God,
If all my prayers are so bad to be heard,
have mercy on me,
for I wish a wild card that you have save for me,
that my prayer to be strong and have faith in everything,
have mercy on me,
for the time that I wish I could change.

Once upon a time,
I am lost in the middle of the city,
Where the buildings are taller than the giraffe,
And the lights shine all day.
Once upon a time,
I found my way back home,
Where Mommy cook nice meals,
and Daddy watch the news headline of the day.
Once upon a time,
I am my way to go to school,
Where cycling is for boys,
and walking is for girls.
Now,
In presence time,
I am my own enemy,
When I am lost in the world of material that I have found.

Still,
I put hopes,
that one day,
you will turn your head,
and look for me.
But,
how can I love you?
when I am not your league,
and the road that I stand,
is not your path.
Hence,
I make a wish,
some day you will recognize me,
in the middle of the people that you met,
that suddenly,
your eyes will blink,
and your heart will beat,
when I am in front of you.
But,
how can I love you?
when I am here,
knowing that the facts,
I can't never be the one,
for you.

I am compassionate and pray hard,
because I am my own Snow White,
I am poise with my strong mind and spirit,
because I am my own Cinderella,
I am natural and cheerful,
because I am my own Aurora,
I am determined to follow my own dreams,
because I am my own Ariel,
I am loyal, outspoken and intelligent,
because I am my own Belle,
I am independent and have courage for myself,
because I am my own Jasmine,
I am brave and strong,
because I am my own Pocahontas,
I am bringing the honor for my family,
because I am my own Mulan,
I am faithful and assertiveness,
because I am my own Rapunzel,
I am not an ordinary Disney Princess,
because I am me.

Wake up by the sounds of the raindrops,
The chirping of the birds,
Orange sunrise,
I am doing well.

Running across the park,
Passing by the trees,
Breath clearly while run,
I am doing well.

Ate breakfast with the radio on,
Drank hot chocolate,
Read the morning newspaper,
I am doing well.

I am doing well.
Even no you with me.

I am doing well.
As long I am alive.

I am doing well,
Even we part the last good bye yesterday.

I am doing well,
Even I cried a river of sadness and hopeless,

I am doing well,
for the vows that we promised has been broken,

by you,
I am just doing well.