I'm tired of writing poems for you that you will never read because
It is pointless like everything I try to do
Lock me in a cabin in the woods until I have to consume my own hands to stay alive in the cold
That's what it feels like when I offer them over and again and I am forced to crawl back into
My individual world where only I understand and I can't let anyone in as
My want for you is as strong as a cannibal craving to eat you alive and washing you down with cheap red wine.

I realize the reason why I am so defensive around you
Is because if I wasn't, I would
Crumble from you attempting to shake my flaws off easy like dust on a shelf
It is not simple, I am not simple, and you already know this
I have to constantly remind myself I am something because
It is people like you that make me want to tear off my skin because it is not good enough
It is people like you that bring me up to drop me down
It is people like you that reinforce my delusion of being nothing.

Shrink me small enough to travel through your body at the speed of light sound vibrations to find your core of thought wavelength motivations slowly intoxicating from the poison you drink to numb them and I poetically overdose physically overdrive feel your pain thinking its mine and deciding this is not me anymore and that I no longer know who you are.

Why do you always return out of nowhere at the most inconveniently convenient time
Where do magicians go when they disappear, it's a secret we're all dying to know.

And did you know I talk to you when you sleep?
I shamelessly speak to you and you have no choice but to listen
Except it is not through your ears
You'll wake up suddenly and warm and I might cross your mind for a spontaneous split second
Like a tip-of-the-tongue phenomenon trying to recall your dreams but...you...just...can't...put your finger on it...

The phantom drifts around my room setting the stage for silent refuge
It fills my lungs with clouds and I lift up, up and fly
Eloquence through the flow of my body keeps my head safe inside.

Dropped into a glass
The chemical reaction is immediate
Watch me dissolve and dissolute
Drink me until you are immune
Until I have no more power left to cure you.