ili - Hello Poetry

ili Sep 2014

the only taste I yearn for
is the dew
that rests upon your lips.
I will replay the melody of you
until my heart mends itself
back together.
my desires are so strong,
they swallow me up
as I half-heartedly fight for air.
the only taste I yearn for
Is the dew on your lips
And the never ending melody of you.

ili Aug 2014

close my eyes

I drank you up, effortlessly.
As I did so,
I closed my eyes.
So that no other reality would blind me.
The lukewarm aura of your being,
Slowly trickled down my throat into every single airway,
Until you permeated in my veins.
To imagine a life not fully consumed by you is unimaginable.
I will forever close my eyes.
So that no other reality will blind me.

ili Aug 2014

friendship

during the moments that we spent apart,
I noticed space seeping behind the walls of your eyes,
blurring your vision.

During the moments that we spent apart,
I could feel my mind begin to stale
As I was stuck with beckoning thoughts seeking a lost love.

during our lasts moments,
All became silent.

We stood at opposite sides of a bay for hours,
Watching as the water flowed on and on.
Understanding that life will go on,
it must.
Our silence was overcome
with an overwhelming feeling of acceptance,
as we slowly retreated.

Walking our different directions,
Walking away from the bay and all of it's teachings.

ili Jul 2014

succeeding life/

you are binded
by your delicate temptations.
they chain you
leaving you lifeless.

you are binded
grabbing at only but wound stricken arms,
that are
out stretched to rescue you.

you are binded
by currents too difficult to tread.
you jumped in believing you could,
after long moments you realize you were led to this moment.
by
your temptations,
the arms meant to pull you up
and
the waters intending to push you under.
leaving you lifeless.

we are held captive by so many things,
Our own temptation,
The people we depend on who become unreliable,
And situations we believe we can resolve until we realize it is beyond our own power to control.
Life leaves us lifeless.

ili Jul 2014

lurk

I recollect memories of
fear
which surged through my veins,
creating havoc in my mind.
Before relaxing my entire being
I would cover myself completely with my sheets.
In the mindset that if I tried covering myself,
I might save myself from all that lurks in the darkness.

As I grew older.

I recollect the tender feeling of carelessness.
& the boldness that surges my veins, even now.
Before relaxing my entire being,
I make sure to leave my strongest parts out beyond the safety of my sheets,
leaving them vulnerable.
In the mindset that if there is something lurking in the darkness
then hell,
I'll lurk along with it as well.

ili Jul 2014

death bed\\sadness sickness

If an extensive amount of sadness can create sickness,
then I am on my death bed.
At 7 in the evening,
It creeps up on me when I wish for my thoughts to be most at rest.
My legs and arms are numb.
They only make movements when my entire body begins to ache from one laying position.
My stomach suffers from an obsessive frenzy,
And I begin to believe
that my body is more focused on bringing me pain
than it is working against the pain.
At this point I don't mind.
My eyes are swollen shut from the lack of tears yet
heavy from the lack of dryness.
I have become vulnerable to my demons.
Because sadness can cause sickness and I am on my death bed,
and I don't care how long I go on without food for the mind
and food for the heart.
Because I am on my death bed.

ili Jul 2014

out of place

it seems I am out of place
filled with vacant conversations
and a weary heart
I'm not suicidal
but
I don't want to breath,
Breathing is thinking
I don't want to think.
I don't want to feel.
it seems I am out of place
and a weary heart and heavy mind are not easily mended with vacant conversations
I'm not suicidal
I just want this void to fill.