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Isobel G Apr 2011
When it's cold,
I remember the way,
His voice caught,
On the wind,
And drifted,
Into the sky
©Nicola-Isobel H.      18.04.2011
Isobel G Oct 2011
I talk to him sometimes,
When no-one's home,
I tried today
I pretend to hear him,
In my footfall,
It was almost too hard
He's there,
The moon on my sheets,
But you wanted me to try
I can't help crying sometimes,
When I imagine him breathing,
Do you think about it?
I remember that feeling,
Of weight on my shoulders,
When I'm alone
I fall into the cold,
Like a makeshift embrace,
*Do you wish you could stop me?
©Nicola-Isobel H.        23.10.2011

Couldn't think of a better title. Any suggestions?
Isobel G Apr 2011
The sky,
Was a mournful grey,
Spattered,
With modest blues,
Behind the red sun,
When two,
Became one
©Nicola-Isobel H.     06.04.2011
Isobel G Jun 2011
When we're out of words to say,
Tell me that you love me,
Show me this is real,
We'll watch the sunlight fade
Isobel G Jan 2011
I don't concentrate,
When the world is moving on,
Without me,
Without you,
When you aren't speaking,
All I think about,
Are the unspoken words,
I long to hear
©Nicola-Isobel H.     04.01.2011
Isobel G Jan 2011
When you're around,
The complex and unforgiving world,
Seems so simple,
So beautiful,
I can believe there is such thing,
As happiness,
Because when you smile,
I don't have to pretend
©Nicola-Isobel H.     11.01.2011
Isobel G Jan 2011
I wonder,
At the world,
Far more beautiful,
Drowned in rainfall,
Than the too-bright sunshine,
I wonder,
Where is the happiness?
©Nicola-Isobel H.     11.01.2011
Isobel G Jun 2011
Under a winter sky,
On an autumn day,
Forgotten,
Is the emptiness,
My mind,
Graced by the clarity,
Of silence,
This is where,
I want to stay
©Nicola-Isobel H.     15.05.2011
Isobel G Jan 2011
Lying awake,
Night after night,
This one particularly painful,
Much worse, too restless,
Forcing me to resort,
To child-like comforts,
To ease the pain,
Of fresh, bleeding wounds,
And substitute the lack,
Of welcomed restraint, of warmth,
That comes from the person,
Who can't offer it,
At this most eminent moment,
While I suffer,
Bleeding, breaking,
In silence
©Nicola-Isobel H.     14.01.2011
Isobel G Nov 2011
You walked me through the gardens,
Past the ***-heads,
Fuming from their ears,
I see roses,
Remember the roses,
Beside you,
Keeping my hands,
Locked within themselves,
The stone monument cold,
Unforgivably firm,
"Show me"
I refuse,
But with time,
Present my scars,
Stifling tears,
Anchored by your arms,
Watching white roses,
*"I'm sorry"
©Nicola-Isobel H.         06.11.2011
Isobel G Feb 2011
Staring down halls,
Of hollowness,
Alone in my past,
Defiant of the future,
Wondering,
Who am I?
©Nicola-Isobel H.      14.02.2011
Isobel G Feb 2011
So confused,
In my state,
Of hollow despair,
Who are we,
To judge,
Or claim insight,
Into the minds,
Of others,
When we do not know,
Our own
©Nicola-Isobel H.      08.02.2011
Isobel G May 2011
You seem so sure,
There's no good in you,
But I know you're wrong,
If only I could make you see,
All that you've done,
I will show you,
Who you've become
©Nicola-Isobel H.     09.05.2011
Isobel G Jan 2011
I'm wondering why,
God betrayed religion,
So blatantly,

Why there's nothing,
The doctors can do,
Absolutely nothing,

Why they never told me,
"He hasn't got long",

Why I won't be able to say,
"I love you",
Enough times,
Before his blood runs cold,

Why the air doesn't fill me,
With life,
But with nausea,

*Couldn't it all just be okay?
©Nicola-Isobel H.     14.01.2011
Isobel G Jan 2011
Why be so vague,
When you can speak,
An honest truth,
I won't judge,
I just want the words,
To be real
©Nicola-Isobel H.     12.01.2011
Isobel G Jun 2011
I love you,
Because you make the sun,
Shine a little brighter,
And the pain,
Drift away to a place,
It cannot be felt,
I love you,
For your honesty,
Because of everything you are,
For giving me a reason,
To wake up,
I love you,
Because I feel so alive,
So real,
When I'm with you,
I wouldn't dream,
Of closing my eyes
©Nicola-Isobel H.     24.05.2011
Isobel G Jun 2011
There are so many reasons,
Why I dream of dying,
But I'm alive,
Because I'm afraid,
Of what tomorrow holds,
I would miss,
The sun behind me,
And the shadows,
In the sky,
I would miss the summer blues,
And winter greys,
The rain and the stars,
I stayed because you asked me to,
I'm afraid to close my eyes
©Nicola-Isobel H.      16.05.2011
Isobel G Jan 2011
Why was it raining,
That day,
One year ago,
When I left you,
Alone,
On the balcony
©Nicola-Isobel H.       25.01.2011
Isobel G Aug 2013
I am desperate for that tender, hungry touch
and the heavy gasp of his saturated lungs,
as he burns me with the fire of his stare
and the hot sting of his palms
cools like tingling fever on my skin.
©Nicola-Isobel H.      05.08.2013

I was reading Firehead by Venero Armanno and this struck me. It's a beautiful book, absolutely hypnotic in it's vivid lyricism and imagery.
Isobel G Oct 2011
Find me in the snow,
You'll be seconds,
Too late,
The winter's calling,
Could you hear the darkness,
You never felt the darkness,
Pulling me away
©Nicola-Isobel H.      16.08.2011
Isobel G Apr 2011
How can I turn it all off,
Witout giving up?
©Nicola-Isobel H.      06.04.2011
Isobel G Mar 2011
Sometimes I wonder,
Who I would be,
Without the hollowness,
If I were not,
Haunted by despair,
Would you be here,
Would I be so willing,
To give it all up,
For nothing,
Would I fall,
Shatter and remain,
Broken and desperate,
As I've done for years,
Endless years that blur,
Into milleniums,
Could I feel,
So torn,
As I do whenever I inhale,
The stale air,
Breathing without purpose,
Slowly dying,
Perishing in the dark and cold,
That is the world around me,
Would I be anything,
Without my disposition
©Nicola-Isobel H.      08.03.2011
Isobel G Feb 2011
We waste away the day,
Dying on the floor,
With our music,
In the background,
We're only dying,
Dying on the floor,
Because nothing matters,
Without the sky
©Nicola-Isobel H.      24.02.2011
Isobel G Feb 2011
Slipping,
I am slipping,
Beyond the safety,
Of the surface,
Sinking,
Into the weightlessness,
Of transparent blue-green,
That consumes me,
And I drown,
With you,
In my subconcious
©Nicola-Isobel H.      27.02.2011
Isobel G Oct 2011
Utter defeat,
Bleeds like poison,
from these futile tears,
Carelessness,
Is all he has to offer,
Closer to the door,
With every second,
My words,
Can no longer hold him back,
I know I mean nothing,
From the moment he leaves,
I carry the weight,
Of worthlessness
©Nicola-Isobel H.     23.06.2011
Isobel G Jan 2011
Old trauma and spilt blood,
Fill my head,
Newer to my mind,
Than yesterday's sky,
Which I cease to remember
©Nicola-Isobel H.      15.01.2011
You
Isobel G Aug 2014
You
You're my dream,
my immutable love.
©Nicola-Isobel H.        17.08.2014
You
Isobel G Oct 2011
You
The sugar-sweet taste,
Of rain,
Secrets unconcealed,
On dripping lips,
With an appetite,
Gentleness,
Lightness of touch,
Thawing, melting,
My snow,
Cotton-candy,
Feather hues,
Deep, rich blue*

Perfect things, perfect words.
Reality or imagination,
I don't care.
©Nicola-Isobel H.       11.10.2011
Isobel G Jun 2011
I think of you,
On that grey afternoon,
Your eyes,
Filled with sky,
My mind free,
From the burden of clouds,
You carry the sun,
With your smile
©Nicola-Isobel H.      19.05.2011
Isobel G May 2011
Under the surface,
I struggle,
To breathe,
To keep you,
In sight,
The ice above,
Draws blood,
Like glass,
As I fail,
In my desperate attempt,
To hold on,
I tried so hard,
But you let go
©Nicola-Isobel H.      09.05.2011
Isobel G Jun 2011
When I look in your eyes,
It's clear,
You mean everything to me,
I can't imagine,
Being without you
©Nicola-Isobel H.     03.06.2011
Isobel G Apr 2011
It's never enough,
To simply be,
Sorry,
You're already,
Broken
©Nicola-Isobel H.       02.04.2011
Isobel G Jun 2011
You're the first,
And the last thing on my mind,
You're in the rain,
And in the sky,
You replace the emptiness,
And keep the darkness away,
You're the reason,
I'm still breathing,
I love you
©Nicola-Isobel H.     27.05.2011
Isobel G Dec 2010
Your grasp,
Like that of Death's own,
So unforgiving and harsh,
Around my fragile wrists,
You pierce my veins,
With your hateful tone,
Spilling my blood,
It drips, drips, drips,
Around us onto the floor,
Where you leave me,
Laughing in echos,
You're not sorry,
You go against sorrow with every move,
With every broken bone,
With every torn heart and shed tear,
You use me as your excuse,
To create this torturous pain,
That you abandon me with
©Nicola-Isobel H.     28.12.2010
Isobel G Jan 2011
You ease my pain,
With your words,
Your talk is not cheap,
But more valuable than life itself
©Nicola-Isobel H.     03.01.2011
Isobel G Apr 2011
Goodbye,*
It sounds like forever
©Nicola-Isobel H.      17.04.2011
Isobel G Nov 2011
You walk alone,
Though they tell you otherwise,
You walk alone,
Because nobody needs forever,
You walk alone,
To show them you're stronger,
You walk alone,
Waiting for the road to end
©Nicola-Isobel H.         02.11.2011
Isobel G Jun 2011
It's not that I'm convinced,
That you will leave,
Even though it's inevitable,
I just don't trust myself enough,
To believe you won't
©Nicola-Isobel H.     28.05.2011

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