Will you catch me
when I fall for you

I read the words but
they won't sink in.
I'm looking into your eyes
but I can't see past
the anatomical details.
I'm opening my mouth
but the words are noiseless
moths with dusty wings.
I want to tell you
anything; that you mean
something.
I want to reach out but
you won't reach back.

I'm closing the door but
I can't walk away.

There is nothing inside me.

Love me in the
back seat of your car

I feel your bones through
your skin and I wonder
if you love me.

I can't undo this;
I can't untangle you from
my sheets.

I can't cut away my scars.

I can't unravel my knotted veins.

I can't see past this.

I'm in too deep -
my own emotions
are the rope around my neck.
You make me want to drag
knives through my skin and
drip blood on your white carpet.

Tear my clothes off,
tear my heart out.