Maybe I yearn for something outcast by individuals perspective or maybe I'm just selective.
Selective to be loved and caress in a way abandoned by this generation,
The lies, manipulation, infactuation, it all drives me to fraustration.
I want to be held like the darkness holds the sun to glisten it's beauty,
Held so my brokenness can repair as I cringe to the sensations of your love to my mentality instead of ******.
I lay fully covered while your heart strip me of insecurity and your hands massage the animosity.
The fire inside me ignites but your eyes and actions eases my soul,
You came into my life and made me feel whole.
You put light into me, attacked my demons, changed my pessimism on having feelings.
You hungered for a heart as intuitive and loving as mine,
And I craved for a romance and sincerity but I was so blind.
Your kiss derived me of my endless thoughts,
Your touch put a latch on my esteem,
Your love renew the empty soul that was lost.
You admired me like a work of art.
If only it was real and not a dream I tiresly wish upon,
The love I desire ,the absence made my heart fond.
Maybe I'm too passionate or maybe I need to grow up,
Or..
Maybe I was born in the wrong era for love.


-dpk

Walking on the path full of curiosity and misery.
I pause for a moment and gaze at the sky questioning myself "i wonder why? "
I wonder why I continue to walk on this path if i know where it will lead.
Conscious yet i walk in emotional ******* while screams plead.
I wonder why i crave for a love deeper than the ocean,
A breath of fresh air i yearned for while my heart was being strangled yet I'm searching.
I wonder why lies are commonly fed to me.
Dismantling walls of bottles thrown while my throat chokes on poison.
Poison that kisses my lip bittersweet while it puts my thoughts at ease.
Holding the trigger of liquor I look in the mirror "why me"
I wonder why i exert myself to pain instead of walking away.
Consistely mouth actions is all that matters yet my hand holds onto you by the things you say.
I wonder why I manipulate my feelings for love.
Mislead by your feelings for me because it gives me a sense of happiness but roses sticks me with their thorns.
I guess you never know what you had til it's gone.
Heart frozen to the point of transfiguration due to false hope.
A beast incapable of being tamed there's no need to cope.
Addicted to a drug stronger than dope tirelessly trying to achieve,
As I continue to walk on the path,
I ask myself
"I wonder why i won't leave? "


-dpk

I teach the kids while my ears is attacked with profanity.
I cater to patients, take baths in blood and diseases with a low salary.
I provide transport to those in need to get to their destination and haven't been paid in 16 weeks.
I risk my life providing electrical work so people can see.
I make the beds, i answer the telephone and i serve drinks at the finest resorts
I....  Got laid off.
I'm defenseless, strip of self confidence so I stay and settle with unfairness.
I'm a single mom with rent due at the end of the month contemplating of my salary in distress.
I got a mother in the hospital laying in her coffin with her medical bills plugged into her wrist.
I have an autistic son that cannot read the grocery list.
Late hours, no sleep, no holiday,
Clean the blood, provide services with a smile, when will I have a say?
Moldy kitchen, hot factories, look at the rats fuming the atmosphere with diseases.
We are chained to victimization, chained to exploit, chained to the inequality but production is all that they see.
My surrows scream for a change while my savings only seem to do is flee..
Searching for a voice but I cannot seem to find the key
Crucial to day
I am an employee .


-dpk

A breath of fresh air I crave for,
The nuisance and animosity surrounding me has no cure.
Doors batted up serve no purpose when you can’t escape the wind,
The wind of hatred spirals and wounds the innocence of sin.
Eyes inflamed with skeletons and dark secrets,
Therapy, police, family none but God can keep it.
Mouth overfilled with profanity and the key,
Mind enclosed the dying body everyone blinded to see.
The truth everyone seeks for but incompetent of their well-being,
Undergoing a spiritual healing but contemplating the negatives I’m actually seeing.
Tears falling echoing the halls of pain,
My mental stability has me sane.
Fractured mirror unable to reflect the truth,
Burning desires capturing the mute.
Dead rosses fume the air of reminiscence,
Each one of us committed a sin.
Consequences of a shattered heart and hidden perpetrators,
The key of truth swallowed in weakness beseech by the caters.
Chaos, conflict, evolution of pain,
Unable to be understood, lines of experience written in vain.





-dpk

It's a pitty how in a room full of people i still feel alone.
It's like my emptiness follows me, knaws at my soul,
I sit there in persuasion maybe it'll go away soon.
No matter what I do it comes back and feeds on my emotions,
I'm already an emotional wreck, here I am coping,
Contemplating is love my healing potion?
It always lead back to you or the past,
The monstors attack my mind putting me in a state where I'm consciously blind ,
And I contemplate how long will it last.
How long will I bury myself in pain and heartache, hiding behind a smile i know is fake?
How do i stop the tears from overflowing like niagara falls, running from the past sinking in a river full of emotions
Cast away from reality sitting numb thinking maybe God will rescue me.
Or am I to blame?
Looking at a reflection full of bad decisions and self pitty covered in beauty.
Screams echoing in my mind, a hand holding on for help to rescue what i perceive to be loneliness
Weaken to the thought of getting better floating in a puddle of melancholia.
Why do we sacrifice ourselves for the one we love?
The door to escape is in front of me but I'm too weak to cross that mile.
I want happiness yet I walk in an emotional ******* that has me chained to what ifs and why me?
My mind attacks my heart to let go perceiving me of what I should see.
Tired of running and falling over what could be. Here I am pleading for the key to let me be free.
Even a lit ****  cannot escape me from this emotional pit,  
This ******* that infuriates my mentality has me questioning my sanity that provokes me to profanity lying to myself blatantly.
Broken, bitterness, nostalgic.
Attached to the pain, the piece of me you took,
Attached to the past, the experiences that has me so shook.
The emptiness suffocates me as I wait for a better destiny.
I kneel on my knees and ask God to help me overcome this heartbreak that's severity.
I love you slipped from your mouth that chained me in your arms, that latched me to your feelings, that exerted me to stay,
If only I knew, i should've just walked away.




-dpk

Trying to look at the positives but the negatives outweighs
Like a wave ready to defeat a vessel so it can be abandon for days.
My mind is all over the place yet i try to hold it together.
Trying to embrace that life will not be as light as a feather
Overwhelming as it can be from one mishap always leads to another thing.
That one thing turns into a catastrophe while I'm here stuck under the sheets sobbing about how can this be.
In the air fumes negativity but the monstors in my head are the ones that does not want to flee.
As they try to manipulate my sanity into controversy while my face play dummy aiming for satisfactory.
But who am i blame?  Trying my hardest yet it's still not enough
Getting older made me realize how times can be so tough.
But it's not about falling it's about picking yourself up,
Though you stumble or even drop you gotta gain stability and handle your stuff.
Giving myself advice still contemplating on thinking twice
I now see how life can be like rolling dice.
Still i wish to be understood, to be heard maybe my mind won't be in chaos over all the things I've lost.
Still i wish i was focused, now look at the damage I've caused.
God please tell me why everything keeps falling apart?



-dpk

Here I am battling myself again.
The constant battle between my mind and the heart i try to amend.
So bold so swift as it strucks at midnight ,
So heartbreaking in such a rage as it attack me with no sympathy in sight.  Can you stop,  why can't you just let me be?
Is it so hard for you to see that i just can't let it be while i have sentimental songs on repeat thinking if this was how it was really meant to be.
Reminiscing of your lips on mine while your hands gently rub my thigh.
Lifting the hairs on my body sending me to a ****** high.
I refuse to forget the times we had, the stories we shared holding hands to the sunrise .
As our hearts dance to the bittersweet joy of each other's presence but it was all a lie.
Was it real or did you choke me as i suffer and crave to breathe your love?
Did you put a gun to my head to shoot me with bullets made of your tender touch and sweet sound?
Was it a knife to slith my throat carved as you adoring smile or was it your aroma that knocked me down?
How am i suppose to think when my head is a blur because all i see is your charmy face?
My heart once again poisoned by your warm embrace .
My mind once again in chaos since i lost the race.
The race between my love and you,
The race that taught me my love wasn't enough for you .
The desolation, the despair, the amusing blue,
Sick to my stomach with all the things you do.
As i walk away this time with no doubt in my mind you were never mine though i fell for your lines ashamed my stupidity made it fine.
Now I'm here writing rhymes because my heart sunk in your quicksand of lies.
Here i am battling myself again,
I knew i should've kept you as a friend.






-dpk